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i misses hym so much.

2010-03-02T23:24:00.002+08:00

2010-03-02T00:34:00.002+08:00

love life shouldnt be struggle. i know its hard to find true love. some give a comment like 'true love? is ther true love in this life?' or ' haha i dont believe in love life love sucks'. love is not about e feeling of love twrds somebody or how u must react over another party. but is about how u understands ech other needs n acceptance of differences.

many mens thought that women must think like howthey think. n women thought that men must be like what they are. they are just invitin conflict, mistrust, misunderstandin etc. if they would hav think that mens n womens comes from different world just like mars n venus, comes from different planet. comes to earth n fall in love. shared thing together, do things together n everything together. but they almost fergot that both are from different world. wher they both can be one another or change one another. as we could see relationship nowadays too much of conflicts n arguements over such a small issues then leads to 95 percent of them break up as no understanding n chemistry between ech of em. well all of this problems can be settle immediate but hav to do it practically n theoritically. its effort on finding way out, understands ech needs n translate men/ womens language to their own hearers.

too much things could be done. but just lazybums n losers gives up hopes wen ther is still space fer them to correct those mistake n live happily ever. in the ways of womens thinking by givin guys an advise or solution in solvin their prob is one of e biggest inslut or criticism given by e womens n make them feel unlove n untrust in solvin by their on; like depend on others. wher on the other hand womens think that they do as becoz they care n love them soo much . whereas e women seek e men to hears their problems out, just to listen not to comment or give a solution or an advise. but mens think womens approach was wantin a solution wen they just need a listenin ear then they will feel relief n at ease. but they will feel that men resist in hearin their probs wen men tend to find benefits of solvin her problems wen they dont need it. if u nodded u head and sayin 'yes yes yes that was me' not only u thought of that . e whole world will sure nodded becoz world is circle. all goes round.

so men must learn to listen n response wen needed, n women must just accept e differences in mens n dun feel neglected wen all that apply thats wen love will grow blossomly. n acceptace e differences between mens n womens.

-guidance by 'mens are mar womens are venus'

ps: this book help me soo much in improvin my relationship with ali. do try it. it helps trust me.

after all that ive gone through..........

2010-01-14T23:43:00.003+08:00

after that all ive gone through alone thru out e past few months,

i had enuf of gettin hurt. i just cudent move on when past held

me back && stop me from movin on n look forward to the

front.

until one fine night, there a guy of e name of mohamed ali whom i knew hym

fer long since 2009, a guy who never fail to talk to me or tag me whenever he saw me

in e msn. we are dating in e internet. since one night came, we chatted

what we chatted let be or talked about let it be sealed n just me n hym knew about it.

what i cud say, we burst out into tears over some matters. then he

added this ''im already officially yours''

but its still hard fer hym to make me hys cause he is afraid of

failure.

i just hope that with me here with hym in hys life,

i could make hym have e thought that not all girls are the same.

i aint like those girls who be with hym n dumped hym.

i love you.

enter to the world of love<3

2010-01-14T23:23:00.002+08:00

quote of the day:

its never to late to to get it done.(=

It has been months since last i blogged. as lots of things i hav to face n solve, using my own methods. i feel so stressed. my life was at messed. no ones hears my shout in e heart. i was totally lost. my mind was being strike with a sharp arrow n its totally shut down.(= nothings cn be undone. just scars behind e wounds. cant be heal or back into one piece. just cracks den cud be seen.

how much i struggle or how much i suffer no one cares. life is beautiful, pure and peace but its just e situation that make it complicated and hard core. everything is all about money now. MONEYMONEYMONEY.! no money cant survive. even love. love without money just nothing. this 2010. not in e 60s or 70s wher ther no money but ther love. love is eveything. love cnt be buy or exchange with cents. yes its true. but no money now no love. wen thers no love no peace wen thers no peace wars being and wen thers WAR, the world is coming to an end wher all ruin n destory,

world can never be fair. my life is one of them. i sacrifice for one but zero in return. i dont expect things in return. but just a lil bit of appreciation is enuf to make me smile n joy. but people are just selfish. think just highly fer themselves dint even spare a thought fer me here struggling and shaking to get out of e mess. they left me here just life a broken wood. that cudent be use anymore, just so USELESS.)= just HOPELESS.........

of all the sorrows at e above, i put it aside n think on e positive side. i left all those fugly life of mine n open a new pure white chapter of book which contains full of love n colours. i pampered myself. drew a pic of my future ahead in my dreams n reality. i goes around just all rounder that just cud me make stand back on my own feet. and now....... im bck as e one that i knew myself before. leave e past. buried it deeply in. n start over a new leaf. as everyones deserve to a chance to leave n a world of peacefullness..

lastly, its never too late to get it done.

love,

efah<3

2009-10-20T00:09:00.002+08:00

seriously im havin fun with daya on dat sunday morning.
we met at douby ghaut at about 7plus. den wen we reach e comp was about to start.
jyeah aft e briefin, we got bck to our own booth. n jyeah wen they count down we both quickly got our ingredients ready n take wat we need. haahaa. my mouth totally like makcik. orderin daya here n ther. sorry ayg dint mean to grumbled at u. hee.

we both havin fun. hhaa. even we dint win but atleast we get to try n do our best. so jyeah cookin isint tat tough if we reali into it anywae. haha. well pichas will be upload soon . n jyeah gona sabotage someone.. hahaa took her video wen she was damn fuuny
haha..

n thnks to didi who sent me bck home helpin me out to carry those heavy bag. haha..

stay tune people..
pichas comin right up.(=

meetin u soon daya.

2009-10-13T22:12:00.002+08:00

will be back.

take a short break.

2009-10-06T22:58:00.003+08:00

hey lovebugs.

soo long since e last i update. was kinda very busy with werk n stuff. posted to chinatown postoffice. crowd with people n different kinds of attitude- no patience at all. dint get to spent most tym outside. raya almost end but dint get a chance to visit late grandfather grave. i kinda missin hym. this year's raya means nothing to me at all. i did said tat in e previous post soo shall not said tat again. havin e hectic day of life was already in this freegin life of mine. surrounded by those unwanted sonofabiacth. this month very uptight. well just here i am being me movin on with single life like usual. nothing special happen recently, since last i updated my blog my life totally change into a diff person. dint had soo much funlike i used to. with frens n family n beloved cousins of mine.i miss all e laughter i had n e joyness of life. enjoyin ech n everysingle dae of life. but upon all e sadness moment i had those days but i manage to smile.dats wat people said 'dont u ever frown cause u might never know that thers somebody love ur smile'. sooooo SMIIIIIIIIIIIIIIILLLLLLLLLLLLLLLEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!((((((=

im gettin tired with my life right now. freegin boring n dull. just how i wish someone cud put colours n lights up light to make my life beautiful ever.(=

* dated with a guy named H but we both failed to make it happen

* saw yusmin yesterdae in train n he claim im different in terms of appearance (=

* life gettin bored n dull

* wish upon e stars to shine those lights at my every night

* missin those days spndin with all my love ones

izit realli hard to find true love? i guess yes it is. need lots of patience n full of commitment in one another. trust n honesty is most priority in relationship. no trust no love. geez~ i aint sure wat im typin n uttered about. all messed up. jyeah this is me full of craps n rippin here n there. haha. ive got new replacement of pooh . but still cnt ferget my love pooh. but this pooh looks likely like my old one. haha. cute.(= havent take his pic yet. shy laa.hhee.

seriously talkin about pooh bear drives my crazy. but this pooh new of mine skin abit pale. not strikin at all.ishh. not to burst this secret oke? not to let it know abut it. hehe. okeoke. enuf of pooh haha i noe ive gone a lil bit sinting. haa.crazy in indon werds.

and wat make me so hyper to type long post n talkin all craps n out of e box? because...............................................................................................................................

................tommorreo, i got my pay n im gg to bowl with 2 sis of mine!!! wuuuhuuuu!!

at marina. who wana join? do tag along e more e merrier!! weee.

see ya around with more camwhore!

hari raya mood(=

2009-09-27T21:40:00.002+08:00

weeehuuu. just now met all my crazy cousins. we all went out fer raye. boring but yet fun. had lotsof fun. we went to only 5 house if im not wrong. sounded sooo mendak. hee. memang mendak pon. skit sak rumah pegy. boring gyler dok. butbutbut. with e 2 hyperbabytoddler n 4 crazy asses of mine make e day become e greatest day of alll.. haa. well.. did nothing much today. what i knoe todat at alot.,ferz house we ate just kueh mueh. 2nd we ate fried bee hoon cooked my embak siti, maid of my '2nd' bro at telok blangah, 3rd at woodlands we ate roti kirai, 4th we ate rice with ayam lemak chili padi n nuggets last house was e best house of all e years. always be e top. at chua chu kang, we ate 'tulang' and fish head asam pedas! fuuuuh! damn delicious. yummmmmmmmmmmy! cravin fer it now. but stomach hurts. hhaa. lame!

ouh yah sad story, yesterdae if im not wrong, azam called me and asked me houw much i bought my shades. i dint answer hym but i keep on askin hym why why n why. at last he said he lost n left at rented car! omg! m soo hurt. cnt he just take care of people's things. keep it with hymslef not let it off from ur hands even fer 1sec? omg! never appreciate others people stuff. yes im mad n furious. that mine. n my fav shades off all. now wen i text hymn call hym he dint even ans or reply.. wat kind of friend he is.. omg!!! azam i dun trust u anymore in borrowin my things.)= u disappoint me. such a disappointment azam. haix. better got it bck! or pay fer it oke. tats my stuff how i pass it to u tats how u give it bck to me in e same condition without any defect of scratches. )=

hmm tmr, new BM comin into our branch n prvious one left n was transfered to bras basah. no more loud voice no more laughter wen shes gone. haiya. tmr new BM. shes kinda boring person. always target on sales . haiya chialat.! weather sooo damn hot sia humid. i miss dat H. hehe. wonderin wat he is duin now. hope he is duin fyne. n fer ipin fuck off u jerk. haha. all ur werds n tricks doesnt affect me n my feelings infact i wud love to play more stupid games tat u created fer me. n FYI im not a cheap gurl cravin fer guys ya. u just cant get overit wen guys added me up at tagged . just cant denied u jealous yah. haha so be it . u dun like it get over it., u hate it, fuck off f u think im rippin let me show ma bck to u n tell u dat a guy like u aint needed here.

weeelll.. cnt wait fer 7th oct. oin bowling witth all crazy asses. who wana tag along sure will do . e more e merrier.!

see ya.

HARI RAYA MOOD.

2009-09-22T22:46:00.002+08:00

SELAMAT HARI RAYA MINAL'AIDIL WALFA'IZIN (=

hello diary.

sorry dint update much about what happen fer last to days. were busy preparation before hari raya. well on our ferz day of raya, nothing much happen n dint feel e sensation of this sepcial day. jyeah maybe because of our late granfather waasnt ther to celebrate with us. he's gone by e time 'solat hari raya' ended. e 'takbir' dat i heard over e radio touches my heart. n make me tears thinkin bout our love lates ones. den enuf of thinkin too much n stress up myself. i jus pray e best fer them there. then ahak i just cant wait to wear my new outfit. this year my colour theme's brown. never wore brown before in entire life. haa. well doesnt luuk great on me either. but nvm laa once a year. so .. its oke.(= my cousin all come to ma house. it was a happy moment with them gathered in e house at whole one big famly. i seek fergiveness from all e elders. n gosh i cried nnnnnnn my make up !! uuuugggh!! meltin!! haha. geez~

preety much cool but yet drop dead. frreeakin boring n not like previous.&& guess wat i and yusmin bck to frens! haa cnt believe it man.that syahrizal keepon sendin selamat hari raya you! to me. irritating insects! but nvm laa. hari baek bulan baek buat baek la kan. hari biase bulan biase buat balek perangai merepek.(= bugheads always like dat laa. cnt be bothered also.let them be al long i dint trouble them. such a nuisance. haha. nothing makes me much happier when my retarded cousins n hyperactive nieces n nephews came. haha. they make lots of noise n jyea e crazziness in them. haa. wel much them much. im sure u guys miss me too ryte? mar waney n mimi. haha. prasan la pulak.=p

wellwell.just cant wait fer next sundy. we meetin again loves.n jyeah im leadin n living in a single life!! wuuhuuu..! free from jerkies n motherfucker sweettalkeer! hhaa

2009-09-16T23:36:00.002+08:00

love this picha of mine. do you? (=

hello lovebugs.

freeaaking bored this morning.being wake by BM.to cover kak lydia on mc.geez~ pretty early i am todae. today's day was damn great, people around me was soo damn lovely and estatic. haha. lots of laughter n joy,butbut that abg halim owaes disturbin n irritate me with hys nonsenses (= and never leave me in peace.grrr. && he owaes get beaten by me usin a wooden ruler. haa. wat u shrek sittin beside hym.duh! (-.-)". but he dint make me frowin. he owaes put a smile on my face...jyeahhaa. cuteness in hym . haa. cool uh..stupendous.!

NO MORE SYAHRIZAL.(=

2009-09-15T01:37:00.002+08:00

atlast, iver escape from the jerk dat named syahrizal, haa. full of werds. u left me once shamed on u, u left me twice, wat u tryin to tell me ur e jerkies? haa. jyeahs u are. well

this is e fers time i aint cryink over hym, jyeah gdd luck with ur gurl ZANNE Z. soo, whats next? ouh yeah last long jyea with ur love ones. haa. memories? i let it all go, haa its was like e rotten apple with worms in it. just like u have e rotten heart. nn hmm. i believe in karma. what goes around comes around. allah maha adil. dier pikir dier tu baek n berpelajaran dier tu hebat mcm hang tuah. ouh come on man, ure nothing to me i just realised tat.(= i aint cry baby. cryin over u like i used to. i tot ur an angel. haha angel kepale otak kau, haaha. kau tu ibarat angel nyer lobang jubo . haaa. btol pe bnyk bobal bnyk bohong. mcm phm sembahyang 21 rakkaat. haa. nnti tikar sembahyang tu balot kau.

haha useless guy. no wonder girls left hym fer another guy. haha

hmm.. kdg2 kan lelaki ni mcm phm tau. nnti ehk dorg lau selenge ker nerd ker nnto dorg pandai2 carik story nk cover dorg nyer kebodohan. padahal2 mcm phm lebih satu pon takder.haa. step alim ulamak konon nk terawih haha.tkper la faaa.. kau pon tk heran ngn lelaki yg setotetlet tu. kee. ape sak spelling. hhaa. tkpernah2 aku type melayu.tkpe belacan skit laa. jadi la faa. hahak. si efah ni tk abes2 ngn der peh tdo. queen of sleep sak dek ni. haha. da nk raye ni bsk aku nk g amek aju uh. haha..

very bored laaa sey. haiz.. keje2. hmm.

kla lazy now to type long2 story.. haa.

tgh binget2 skit nie.. haee

2009-09-09T23:58:00.002+08:00

good evening lovess,

life isnt good nowadays. conflicts goin on here n ther. it suckx big time havin a hard time solvin unwantd probs that comes in my walkway. somebody has bein such a pain in e eye n such a yucks in e throat.gosh, im crappin i know that. jyeah my mind is blaank, precisely! i dun know wher to start either. im gettin lazy to keep on postin e same thing ech n every single day. nothing happen or nothing great happenin this few days but hurt n hatred. boriiing efah ur life!! jyeah i know. relax man. geez~

im missin (S) meetin u soon jyeah.im stress at home n with my own sickenin life. grrr. financial prob especially. need to pay fer insurance, my bill, my exlink. haiyaaa. very tight! damn. howi wish e money plant is real money. den i cud just plug as n wen i like. livin in a luxury life also is not a healty lifestyle to live in. evrything is not ryte laah. this wrong that also wrong all wrong.! fucked up life. jyeah that a wron gthing to say about owns life. but wat to do . me n family aint in good terms now days. wana find ways fer solution? i dun think we need any cause 'ey dint giv a damn on it also. omgomg. im so emo here. omgomg!

-oke efah stop here about ur stress life. get up n get a life dumbass!-

just now i went bedok with adeq. went browsin to one shop another. bedok pretty much borin just like desert. nothing so plain n empty. thers alot laa but nothing attract my eyes. until i saw dis cute lil thingy. i just grab it n i luk at e price n it was like omg! just a silly dummy think koz at a 11 bucks? pathetic sia. wadeva laa. ahaha. now talkin to a fren of mine silly fren. crazy ass. haha. opps! i dint mean to but ure just one of them. hee. FAKE!!! well ure great to talk to laa. dun worries. haha. wonderin what (S) duin ryte now. hmm thinkin about hym evry now n then. miss hys cuddle laa.

i think dats all i cn say laa. nothing much laa. wait fer tmr ok aft my date with (S)!! haha..

see ya buggies!

2009-09-05T23:06:00.002+08:00

just 2weeks left comin to raya. n mama is outside jadi mcm pelarian cari shelter to live. im just , n i cud feel e hurt like wats mama goin tru. oni if i hav e guts to take her with me n oni if i hav e money to take her with me to go away from here i will. dat dae on 1st sept is alrdy 3yrs of papa's absence. when i called her just now asked her how is she, she cried. n sayin Allah really test her

in movin in with life. durin papa existance everytin went smth n fyne. but aft all those over, nothing change mama's life into a memorable but it become e bitter-st ever. she said she want all her kids to gather around her. n she wana to feed us like how it was during us in childhd. but it was all just one dream tat may nver happen. hari raya jus around e corner, n she hav to celebrate it in e

streets. no wher to live.n dat papa creates stupid n such an idotics unwanted scene. alwaes with hys liquior..get paid n finish all on those stupid drinks. n left mama with no cents. i miss her. wen i hear her voice. i cud feel e hurt n e burden she's carryin. she said this "mama tknk ifah pikir yg ifah tk ader keluarge atau rase tersingkir dan tidak diperlukan di keluarga itu. kakak maseh ada
mama. mama yg melahirkan.

insyaallah allah akan melimpar kan rezeki kat mama jadi mama dapt suap anak2 mama mkn dgn tangan mama sendiri. mama rindu suap anak2 mama. tapi syg nya mama tidak di beri kesempatan. ifah, nnti bile menjelang hari raye, jgn lupe jengok mama."

whateva i type at e above,

that was all e conversation i had with my mama.it has been years i nvr celebrate hari raya with her. shes ther sufferin lookin fer a home fer shelter wen im here sittin down n just watch. how cruel i am as a daughter. im sorry mama fer wat happen to u outside, oni if i hav e money, i will bring u awa from here. n get rid off those who is hurtin u now. i noe ALLAH hears us. n so do papa. even he's gone im sure he is ther watchin over u. he might be cryin seein u in hard life.

wen i heard u shed ur tears, i felt so sad. n i do cry. i feel e pain n e torn to ur scar. i noe u suffer mama. i noe u want to get out from those cage n locks. insyaallah mama, allah allow me to feed u with my own hands n showered u with my love n care.

amin..

2009-09-02T01:09:00.002+08:00

i miss this days after training.

me n kakak faezah.

luve u kakak!!!

heeeeeeeeeeeeeee...

n not to ferget kakak mila!!!

2009-08-29T21:12:00.002+08:00

e reason y i use red colour font as it resembles my heart thats bleed. those love thati use to hav all gone n vanished as shits happen ysterdae. i tot he is e one fer me but he's not. i tot he cud be e one that purify my heart but he is not e one. whateva we did together n whateva we going tru together is meaninless to hym. onli if dat 'thing' dint happen i woudnt be in this state. at fers we both managed to settle things n not to affext our relation but it happen now to me. i tot u are diff but u had prove to me u are just e oneof them. my blog hasnt been a gud one. i know u guys realised that. same goes to me. my life wasnt beena gud memorable one but its worst than a nightmare. you are just being selfish. u said u love, u said u care but u dint. u choose to end it up. its ur decision. yes i may respect it n i shall go. but how am i gointo face all e hurts tat happen to me. u said i pressure u . not oni u .i feel e pressure too. u make me wait fer days n sometime almost week fer ur return. buti dint said u pressure me as i dont wanna hurt u. i kept it fer myself. so that i wont go over board. but i dint realised it even once. u tot im fine n im oke. but im not. during e ferz time u confess to me dat u like me den u said u love. but ur love aint true as u end it in this manner. such a hurtful thing in life. it happen to me alot of time. whenever i being straight forward u choose to run awy from e reality n went off tellin me tat we are not as one. n we cant make it. u givin me hopes. high hopes. i giv u my all but u betrayed me. u say wanna take things slow, but u still choose to let me go at last. u are being unfair to me. ive risk my life to be with u. ive never take u fer granted. i wana love u like i never love someone before. guys will always be guys. u said ferget abt e past we did. its easy fer u cause ur a guy with no hearts n feelings. im a lady with all those. i choose to be frank so to make u know dat i love. but as fer u, u take it things so lightly n u ran awy. once a liar always be a liar.

fers it was norriz, then sunny, now its u.

its true what people said, dont judge someone by e looks. soo its true tat i missjudge u. i tot when u hav e qualification n u hav all e assets u are one in a million. but i was totaly wrong. u are a man with thousand of faces. just like a guys next door. shall not say much. koz it hurtinme deep down.

hav to move on withnormal life as before. bck to square one.

to syahrizal,

thnks fer all e kindness towrds me. n thnks fer e love that u said its a pure n true.

thnks fer e slipper. thnks fer e brokenheart. thnks fer night. thnks fer e treat.

thnks fer e broken promises. thnks fer e empty hopes. thnks fer e care n concern.

thnks fer e kiss n hugs. thnks fer being ther fer me. n thousand thnk q fer eveything.

='(

2009-08-28T23:05:00.002+08:00

to all the love ones,

thnks fer e great n sweet wishes. especially mimi, mar, waney u guys are great. u guys are e seven colours dat completes me. e wishes is more then enough. to my all frens, yansufi, azam, wawan, kak rinie, kak ezah, daya, izzat, kecik, yazid, efa etc; n to e rest thnks fer all e wishes. u guys are wonderful drugs of mine.=)

to syahrizal, thnks sayang fer e wishes. and, its kinda hurt dat u cancel it. due to something. =( on dat big dae of mine. all went suck. i sat a e mrt n tears out. waitin fer ur call n all. but i dint even respond. u make me waited fer all. n break my fast just with no apitite.

2009-08-28T22:19:00.002+08:00

it has been daes since last he contact me. afta hys prepaid went gone i dint hear anything from hym at all. i tears all night n eat improper meal. what eva i do at werk or home feel so wrong. nothing has done well. he used to be ther whenever i beep hym but now not even once. i feel so lonely. my life feels like an empty tin wher got loud sound but nothings insyd. just emptiness. gettin rid of the feelin? i just cant. its hard task fer me to do it so. each n everysingle day i live, ive never even not think about hym. we both use to tell our wherabouts but now it feel so hopeless n nothin cn be done. ive been wastin full of my time cryin over this matter. i miss hys presence. hys voice. && all. is this my fate? y ive been given this kind of awful feelin n difficult test to get to these obstacles. i reali have hard time goin tru all this alone. no guide lines n no clues in it. it just hurts n torn.=(

its not easy to purify this lil heart. && its not easy to accept e unexpected dat arrive at any moment or upcoming time to time. is this e punishment that i get fer wht ive done in years bck? or is this a random moment that comes n go n all goes bck to normal? none of those questions i know e answers. just blank mind. ur absents had made me into a dull n bore person. life thats full of torns n hurts. ive gone tru all this fer years i tot i cud made it this time round. ive been hopin fer to be a luckiest girl eva but it seems that e door to my love journey is lock. n cnt be open. force it hard but still its lock. i reali missed hym. ive been tears-ing fer hym to call me. but not even a call from hym each and everyday ive waited. i dun wish whateva that ive gone tru in e past happens again. please not this time. i gve my all to hav just one more life night with u to feel e love. && its like im riskin my life to be standin next to u to feel e warmness of ur breath n cuddle. but it was all in one dream. just a dream. e pillar to our love almost fall. but im still holdin on to it. cause i know u will come bck fer my love. i dun care if im devotee or desperate. those people will never feel what i feel now even they hav gone tru this before me. but e feelin is much more deeper den anyone else.=(

"ever since u came into my life,

u had made a big impact to it.

u change me into somebody

&& u all colours to it.

u light up my life & u are e light

fer u bulb in my heart.

years hav past but i still hunt by those

bad memories of mine.

until e time has arrived && god creates u

he send u down to earth n meet me.

from there e love began to grow n spread.

e virus of love is e pillar to

strengthen e beautiful melody of our

love chapter."

2009-08-24T01:24:00.001+08:00

life is reali boring.

nothing much i cud say in e blog section now.

no more all e great moments or story dat i cud share.

jyeah just wait oke lovelies..

update soon with full of love.

2009-08-23T21:11:00.002+08:00

to the biggest bitch and minahrep!

hey bitch,

stop being sore in people's eye includin me. at e fers time i saw u, i reali hate to see yr damn face. ive never say dat i hav e perfection in my appearance. but even if i dun, atleast never i show u e baddest part of me. e fers impression u make to my side was nothing! just a werds of REJECTION! stupid my cousin of mine to hav choose u as hys lover. 'one in a million'? nah i dun think soo. but ure just like a girl next door. one person dat hav thousands of clone. haha. nothing special in u. blind to see in real love. well its good dat u hav been fucked! i feel like puke wen i heard or see ur face at this estate. dun u eva use dat WANSUAY to me coz i aint like all those minahs includin u, (A). shall not say ur name in here. might by makin somebody's eyes turn red n heartache. jyea i dun mind if tat somebody gettin pissed readin tis blog section.well it meant fer i. im typin tis n wastin ma typin jyea just fer u. awww. how sweet. u are jus a girl. jyea just a normal street girl dat can make decision on ur own. hahaa. pity ur life jyeah. ouh. yesyes i rembered u tellin me dat ure a spoilt brat dat dun heed any advice, hang out n not come bck home. hav a wild life with dat tattoo ink on ur forehead. u thinki care? u think i damn fuckin care about u tattoo n ur wild life? haa u got it wrong babe. all that means nothing to me. but u say it out with full of energy n being proud of being a spoiler. geez. nobody wants dat kind of life but i insists to hav it. yeah ur choice anywae. well tell ur father DO NOT SAY ANYTHING BAD OR DISCRIBE ANYTHING ABOUT MY FAMILY OR RELATIVES!

get it ? or need me to repeat? oke i repeat yeah.

DO NOT SAY ANYTHING OR DISCRIBE ANYTHING ABOUT MY FAMILY OR RELATIVES! koz u know nothing about them. ur father knows nothing. he is such a loser n coward dat dun dare to say it infront of us. FUCKED UR MOTHER ASS! yes im rude! yes im suck! sooo?? haha.. ur father dun deserve e respect he deserve to be kick in hys dick n let hym lay down dead! jerk!

nn u ask me to wait and see wat u gona do to me? omg!! im soooooooooo scared (A).. please dun hurt me. pfft! haah bullshit. do it if u dare! well nothing scares me. nothing. ure just a piece of shit. well girl ur matrep is ther fer u. sooo jyeah dun be sooo plastic by sayin.' i still regard ur family like mine. i still will come to ur dad's bdae n i buy hym a cake . its a promise" haha bullshit. jus a sentence. crap! girl ure rippin here babe. u aint needed in this family of mine n all.

2009-08-23T00:48:00.002+08:00

awww.. blogger is being sucha user friendly now. haha.. just try once n jyeah pic uploaded.!

this wed 26th aug 2009 im meetin my nerdyboi! celebrating my big dae. cheyy, sweet 8teen. started to miss hym oreadi. he is now singin with his sis. haa cuteness of hym. today's day was sooo damn boring. makin me soo turn off. turn off?? i said dat? . .. haha. fers dae of fastin just now. but i dint. ekeke.. leave fer 2 days. mondae will be it. ee..=)

boredness is killin meeeeee..!

now im at mars crib sleepin over her house. jyeah accompany her to do her art dat due on mondae! haa.. her lazyness of duin her art werk. haha. freeeaaakin damn bored. like a dead shell . =(pfft! no idea wat to type either. my daily life is almost e same like e dae before n previous one. haiz... nothing cud change it until someone cheer me up yaww. now chattin with love before he goin to sleep.

my mind is blaaaaank =)!

seriously ive got no more werds to type here. but u just cant leave it blank jyeah. hmm.. talkin about love? sex? about people n charaacter? okok.. none of e above. haha. nn. im now lookin at mar. shes duin her art werk n chat at e same time. how to finish her werk. haiya.. =) now iwan is havin a bad time with his ex gf! omgomg.! boredness is killin me.! (-.-)' lookin at hys face sooo stress. haaha.. n hys ex gf was not reali in love with hym. soo fast got someone new. fuck laa.. all this shit happen to all my cousins! fuckin shit. motherfuckertits! damn u gerl.

okok... now enuf of all the probs ive heard. its time fer me to clear off n delete off all those stupid stuff dat stuck in myhead. damn headache! u people pisses me ! get a life darn u losers ass!

2009-08-22T03:12:00.000+08:00

i missed dis dude!! syahrizal!!!

meetin u soon baby!! muah!

2009-08-22T02:50:00.002+08:00

ignore e pic above. haha. randomly taken!

good mawnink sleepyhead.

First of all, SELAMAT BERPUASE TO ALL MUSLIMS. =) jangan puase yokyok.. dose tau.. we girls lau tak puase ader sebab. Allah loves us dats y kasi cuti hhaa.=) okeoke.. but dun take fer granted jyeah.

to my beloved dearest bestfriend noor,

heylove. just ferget what happen oke. tht jerk dat u were talkin to me earlier he such an idiots laa.he doesnt worth to confront with. jyeah as u know he is such a 'great fuckin storyteller'. actuali he deserve a tight slap from me. let me teach hym a good damn lesson. he tot tat every girl wud fall n listen to e craps he create. hey how long u take to came up all those shit ideas of urs? aint u think about peoples feelings? come on damn it, thinkthink & think wat if dis happen to ur own sis if u hav one. u will definitly sided her n do wats e best to dat fuckin shit ryte? same goes to me. so well. if i were to right a long blog post i dun think u will read it but others will n they will fer sure came up with a name to lable u. i may not know wats those funny n cute names to give u. well wait n see oke. if u happens to pass by this flabberghausted girl 's blog do read tis whole section. its all fer u babi! haha. baby aint a nice name fer u damnit. hehe. babi will do. hee. swine u farhan!!! gettin on peoples nerves! ouh come on u dunhav to create a fairy tales n started to crack a lie n bad mouth my noor oke! please shes e victim of urs. dun be like s bitch mouth. dun u ever hurt her oke. enuf of e trouble u developed in e past. dun bring it back to haunt her. u know her weaknesses. but u still insists on hurtin her. please fer goodness sake n its fer ur own bloody damn good. stay awy from. her get her name clean as before. no more nonsense from u farhan. to me its a normal thing jerk like u hav dis bitch mouth. grow up bro. ur age n mine soo much big gap. well enuf laa. u wont even apply to it.

so noor, jus relax oke. i wont let such things happen again.if he does, i will make sure his finger cant even type n hys mouth cnt even tok. jus wind tats enter in n out. i mean it noor. take my werds. i wont hesitate to do such a thing. serious ly!

2009-08-19T23:33:00.004+08:00

1 more week to go!!! fer ma big dae!!!! wuuuhuuuu!!!!!

wish me yea guys!! will be waiting!!! hehee....

now time shows 11:38pm. but yet i havent gotten my shower . from werk then paaap! lepak! tiring dae. but hilarious wednesday! reali had fun with those abg n kakak ther. haaha.. even customer complaint or wat we still cud make fun of it. i tot my day is such a bore. ut with them around they cheer me up instead.! thnks guys. supossingly im suposed to meet babySyah. but jyeah cant took off day todae . as shortage of man power. our gerek BM is out fer vacation. haha. on fridae she will be bck i guess. well enuf of werk stuff n dae.

basically i dunno wat im gonna talk about tonite. freakkkin lazy to ermm. crack ma brains to search memory bck to get e ideas of how n wher to start. koz nothing much i cud tell about my life nowadays. like i said my life is such a bore. haha.. it was like fish dat being left out fer afew hours n no one touches it n it become so slimmy n jyeah spoilt. but of course im noooot a fish dumbhead. keke.. sorrie abit harsh name. hehe. n u know wat, I pissed me off.! pfft! he reali spoil my bloody damn mood.! omgomg!!! cn u please fer once. stay out from my affair. with who or who e person is dat im with now doesnt concern u much. omg! ouh come on laa. ders sooo much things to do y u must come n distured my own bloody affair dat dosent owe u anithing. alerrrmakkk!! okeok let me open a topic.

wanna know soomething? ders dis lil young girl dat still under beyond parent control even she oready big n old enuf to go with her own pace of life but jyeah her parent hold her bck. hehe. pity u dear "bestfriend'! aww.... ur stories are soo reali n soo scared, full of emotions n full of big harsh werds to scare people off n make e fers tot dat she a big gangsta of all e estate! haha. but e second tot shes jus minor. haa so waaat if uhav all those bigs werds n ur big damn head. dun u tink people might head down n say yes to u or look high on u. two werds fer ya. dream on girl. hee. well ur stories makes me giggle to death! haha. let me tell u someting. n let me share u a story. short story. err.. , maybe not story i jus make it short to let u understand a simple english oke? n i wont make it too complicatin fer u oke? =)

there are people who owaes use harsh werds to make a big huuhaa over a thing dat doesnt worht to talk about or sometime they use harsh werds or big werds just to pull us down . but in actual fact people who tends to talk n came out with big harsh werds to fuck people was those who is tryin to hide their weakness or uncapabality of fullfilling something. just to hide it. well if u still dunt understand e above i make it easier fer u by summarised all those in a werd. which is COWARD. jyeah oni cowards does tat.

so girl please. mirror urself oke.=)

2009-08-18T00:09:00.002+08:00

WHAT DO WE CALL PEOPLE WHO INTERFER IN SOMEBODY'S MATTER? A PERSON WITH NO LIFE? OR A IDIOTICS DAT TRYIN TO LABLED THEMSELVES AS A UNWANTED SPECIES DAT COME FROM NOWHER.?

i dun give a damn to those people. hehe.. wat i noe in happy with wat i alwaes wanted. n jyeah ive found it. n done! already settled. haha.. im stubborn? reali? is dat e good werds to describe me? im a stubborn girl? neh, ure wrong. let tell u this straight to ur face , a better werd fer me is im assertive. noe wats e meaning to it? it means;being confident, so people can't force you to do things you don't want to do. n jyeah its good to be assertive person. u are just a arguementative person. a person who loves toooo disagree and cant accept wat people said. && yes dats u. hhaa. imnow being rude or being a big headed here. but infact in stating e truth about u. dumb ass. =) well so wat if im a girl with no manners or watsoeva shit u people call.. dis is me e oni efah. nobody, cud jyeah tell me off. cause i aint own tis world or earth. u guys are jus jealous. ouuh coome on.. why still bother to stood still in my life which u guys gain nothing to it. haiya.. worthless laa guys.. bucked up please. get e better stable job earn money n get a life laa. den feef ur flaky family includin u.

better not talk much waste tym n breath n jyea mind tired of thinkin werds. haha.

nights suckers.

2009-08-16T22:35:00.002+08:00

my life is reali turn out to be a miserable one. he dint text me e whole dae. =( i turn out cryink rite now. idk y. it reali sucks havin dis stress feeling. i reali miss LAZIRHAYS. i realli doo. omg! my tears keep on rolling down n thinkin about hym. cant ferget e precious moment we had 2gather. it such a meaningful one. i cant denied. he give tat impact n made a diff in my own life. he change me to a person tat worth. im glad to know someone better den previous. last night havin this misunderstandin btwn ech other. i take it, its my fault. yes its mine. im sorry an d i promise, i wont repeated it again. i do regret. i dun wish things to go e opposite wae. e pic above is pic afta i went out with hym. e smile dat i put never been like dat before. dat smile was a smile dat tellin me im e luckiest girl to known hym. omg. i love hym . but i cnt put high hopes. i dont noe whether im hys type. i dun noe whether he is please with me. i hope i was. i hope im e one. i reali pray hard. i really want tat surprise to happen. i cud feel my own heart pumping. e sense of luv send it to whole n sayin he is my soul to my body. yes its still earli. as wen im beside hym as wen he hug n kiss me. he held ma hands. e love developed. i cnt force it to stop ther n said enuf. i cnt just cant. it keep on growin. i hope u are too syah. i tot i cnt move on. but in actual fact yes i cn move on. e great impact he made in my life was such a wonderful one.

he owaes giv me e wae fers. all ferz for me.=( omg now im tears wen i recall everything n every single mins n hour dat we spent together without anyone disturbed. oh god. please grant ma wish. i dun want history to come bck from e past. it reali haunt me down. e feelin of it was terrible. it was like my worst nightmare ever. we went out afew times. n yes we did havin fun. seriously havin fun. i cant ferget all those, yes dis might be e same as e previous post dat i posted days ago. but yes its e fact dat i cud rember it from a - z. everythin still fresh in mind. he is such a gentleman. he told me e longest relation was 6months. koz girls dumped hym kos he got no asset. but i dun care all tat. i noe wana love hym, care fer hym and all. i dun wana be a girl labled as a girl dat guys hoping same as hopin sex partner.! no im not tat. please give me e chance to make u see e brighter side of me dat i cud be e one dat holdin on to our pole of love till e end. god willing. amin..

syahrizal, i reali miss u. miss us, miss our days crackin jokes shared stories, went out 2gather,e laughter of urs n us. we holdin hand tite.we kiss fer e fers time at douby ghaut, all our memories are still fresh in me. i reali hope dat wher eva u are u cud feel dat i reali misses u! i reali do syah.

just how i wish i cud shout ur name out. so dat e whole world to noe dat i hav u in life. yes they may think im crazy maybe u also cud think e same way. but i dun care. koz i want to make sure dat i noes it. everysingle night n day, mins n hours u e onli guy i thought of. no one else. it maybe sweet werds dat i utter here. but im not. it reali from e bottom of ma heart. even my cousins cud think im despo or crazy. go ahead n think wat u wana think about me. i dun give n damn even fer awhile/mins. coz dey noe my love to e one i love. name it im ready fer it just to show u dat im ready fer wateva outcome dat comes.

LAZIRHAYS ♥ EZORA'ARY

2009-08-14T21:41:00.002+08:00

hello buggies! =)

life is sucks now. turn me into a 'dead corpse' no life, no enjoyment, no fun and etc; jyeah now ma life is busy with ma werk n stuff. everyday face damn customer. damn it. n things happen in a chaotic wae. too much chaos tat irritating customer make. okoke.. stop about werkin life of mine. make it short, MY LIFE NOW SUCKS!

now, its about syahrizal.! haa. i noe u guys must hav been browsin in here checkin fer new post about hym ryte? well actuali i cant reali say tat much jyeah. well not to e next stage yet. but atleast thers 1 step up . haa. dat is level 2; deepen our chemistry. hehe. want me to elaborate? suresure=).. . hmm. its basically about our bonding. jyeah. hee.. not even a month we both noe ech other. but we both its like went tru alot of memories 2gather, starts from watchin movie then lepak-ings at cathay, followed by e 2nd meeting andd mooore. jyeah even just about 3tyms meet. i feelin it i mean e love dat i hav. jyeah i noe its too early, i noe dat but no matter wat i ve to follow hys pace by takin thing slow n steady infact dats ma idea . noo la both actualy. haha,

meetin hym up soon!!!! yeay!!! kinda miss hym much though! hehe.. wonderin wat he do.i cnt ferget he said tis"i think wat we did wasnt a psat tym actuali." omg i noe wat he means. omgomg!! hope my dream come true. n jyeah im countin down fer my bdae. on e 26th .. hope he will be e ferz to wish me. ily baby. but i cnt put hopes dat high. its a risk actually. so jyeah follow with e flow n i do trust hym. n hys not one of them dat i blacklisted before. jyeah its still early fer me to judge hym dat deep. wait fer e moment of truth. n everythings gone be reveal. n dat nite is gona be e worst or e happiest moment fer me n hym. PRAY HARD EFAH.

wellweelll. hehe not to ferget ma superduperirritating cousins! MAR WANEY N MIMI! HAHA. u guys rawk!yeah! well meet up soon jyeah. tmr outtin tk jadi kan? soooo boring. lau tk we all camwhore.! exclude e ladies dat married.! hhaa.. badbadbad..! well hey puase is comin up . cant wait.! its a must fer u guys to breakfast at ma crib one of e dae taul,!=) guysguysguys.. wanna noe wat. on my bdae, he gona bring me to eat fondue.! haha.. random kan.. preeeetty cute. n afta dat eat nasi ayam penyet at kampong melayu. maybe to other booring destination but im havin fun with hym! reali!! weeee.. i noe conferm dier bace . he must thought im crazzie! hahaa. love u guys. well wani stop it ehk kao n suar kilat kao. hehe.but lawa la kan.. n nur bile nk otp lameer2 talkin about tat 'HOT TOPIC! ' AHAHA. u noe i noe. n mar biler n kuar ngn aku haha bedok pon bedok laa...

klaa see yar,, see u in next post!

2009-08-10T21:56:00.003+08:00

hello online diary.!=)

it has been aaaaa loooong time since last i update ma blog. actuali thers alot of things happen during m away fer few weeks . jyeaaah dats y ive got no time to update! hee.. sorrie yeah. ouh btw, ive already found a new job. being a CSO at tanjong pagar singpost. hee. oke laa rather i stayed at home n shake leg. heehe n expandin ma butt. grrr.. fatso me!.

today is my baby prince berdae dat is my superb nephew! MOHAMMAD AKID ARIQ! HAPPY BERFDAE SAYANG. already 1 year in tis world. keke! yesterdae had prayers fer my late grandpa. haix pretty missed hym !=( okeok.. shud not be sad over people tat had already dead. hope he rest in peace.before we proceed to prayer, in tat afternoon we celebrate akid's 1year bedae. hee. hilarious n exciting. haa. e ice cream was damn delicious. COOKIES & CREAM ICE CREAM CHOCOLATE CAKE! omg!! is sound so tempting! hehe. well wat a 1yr boy cud do? haa cudent even blow a candle so my niece, yaya n darwisha blew it. haa. so cute n adorable! keke!!

andandand!!!! guess wat i went date with syahrizal! hee.. oh man it was awesome! before i went further wat we do n wher we went, something happen e day before. it happens during we smsin ech. dat was at night. i cudent really recall wat n wher we started our conversation, ouh yar if im not wrong, we started about wat we gona wear. haahaa. well we planned to wear someting like eerrr.. so not casual but.. heeehee u noe wat i mean ryte syah! hee.den we both reali hope to finish early e next dae. koz cnt pretty wait fer tmr's plan. den he asked me tis quest,

s: you, you dont own by somebody right?

me: no.y?

s: ure single right?

me: im not.y?

s: do u have somebody in mind?

me: i do. wat abt u?

s: no=) i dont have.=)

me: y u askin me all tis? (if im not wrong i send tat?)

s: i surprise for you tmr. dun worry its a good thing.=)

me: wat u mean? izit by action or by things?

s: no action. about heart.=)feelings=)

me: i still don get it wat u tryin to sae. nvm wait fer tmr.

s: jyeah dun worry its a good tmr.=)

this msg i was about to send to hym abt e question dat he as me *do you hav somebody in mnd?*> actuali e person in my mind now is you. but i think its too early fer me to tell u tis straight forward. jyeah so i jus keep it to myself till im ready.

e dae has come and it was hilarious day with hym, we reali spent tym wisely. den came tis part wen i ask hym wat e surprise all about n my curiousity is killinme!!

me: b wat is e surprise u were sayin yesterdae?

s: actuali ive think through. but i duno whether to you is random or not.

me: wat u mean random? so wat is it?

s: errr.. nvm gimme tym=) it not e right place to tell u. hee. let me think tru again.

(arggh!! it was damn nervous waitin fer hym to say out)

me: ive been waitin fer u to say since yesterdae. haiya.

(but he dint say it! damn! haha)

s: okeok.. but not now haaa. wait till we meet at e right place.

haha.. oh man.

actuali i noe wat he gona sae. den

yesterdae night .we smsin. jyeah misses ech other n tot of meetin but cancelled due to hys auntie passed away.=( haiz.. so pity hym. but yesterdae night i got e ans fer all my doubt n curiousity! haa..

he texts me this. but fer i ask hym tis i still wana noe wat is e surprise. n i wana noe whether e surprise still on?

message from hym @ 01:10:55 10-08-2009

s: the suprise is. i like you. but its kinda take time fer me to build love bck.i dah lamer no gf. haha.

me:wat?! u like me?! omg! omg! u wana noe wat?

s: what??,, haha.

me: ive been keeping it frm e dae we met.omg! but i jus keep it koz i sae mustahil he like me.den i jus go on with e flow.dat nite i tot i wana tell u who is in ma mind but wen i think bck its kinda too fast to talk abt it. so i remain silence. haha omg! no wonder u say its not e right place to say . haha. but here oso not e ryte place ley. hehe.

s:but i cant wait hee=) err but we take it slow ok.=)

me:u cant wait fer wat? haa.err yeah jus take it slow till u n me ready.koz i da nak stick to 1 n settle down even im still young. but jyeah ive tot tru. so u must tink far oke? i dun want thing to go wrong n puttin hopes. jyeah guys been hurtin me alot.

s: alright take it slow. n steady.

tat about me n hym.. ily syah!

xoxo.

2009-07-28T02:22:00.001+08:00

me n mimi otw to tamp!!!miss u mimi!!

2009-07-28T01:46:00.004+08:00

pichas of syahrizal n e slippers!!!!

us at mac in pasir ris..

sory no pics dis time but will be upload soon!

2009-07-26T23:32:00.003+08:00

hello im bck diary.

lots n lots to update in here. it jus dat i dun hav e tyme to do tat, due to jus get fired by stupid boss over no sales. oh come on tis is business. gosh i dunk tink u suits to run a business to u doesnt noe w risk or consequences. stupid dumbbell.den, busy with something else. like err. lookin fer new stable job n all. yeah call here n ther to make an appointmnt but never seems to happen.=p.

alot of things to talk about todae. haaa. well wher shud i start. hmm. oke. well i think i start with TUESDAE 21st july 2009, then FRIDAE 24th july 2009, followed by SATURDAE 25th july 2009 end by SUNDAE 26th july 2009.

TUESDAE 21th july 09,
i went out with syahrizal, or shud i call it a date? hee. yea a date with hym. but supposingly we went out on mondae e dae b4. but due to hys grandma was pretty unwell so we postpone it to tusdae!. b4 we mit we both txts each other plannin about later on wat we do n weher we decided to go and what will we both be wearin. den came in dis random question asked by hym,
hym:' you what is ur fav colour?'
me: 'err red followed by black then pink last green . y u ask?"
hym: " nah im jus askin =) and what is e size of ur feet?'
me: if sandal shud be around 37/40 n slipper wud be 36/38 y u ask? u wana buy it fer ur gf?"
hym: ' no lah jus askin hehe =)"
me: "tell me laa. if not then y u ask?'
hym:=)

n jyeah ther it goes. actuali ders no stop of us smsin. if i were to tell u all i dun think i cud continue onto e nxt followin dae. haa. oke den we both agreed to meet up at bugis at around 6pm sharp. koz we are catchin a movie titles TRANSFORMER:the fallen. then e clock strike almost 6 n i wasnt even gettin ready but infact he ends hys werk at 5pm. i feel so bad as i hav to do this n dat. koz e movie startin in 30mins tyme n i was still n my fuggin home! damn. he text me whether im out or not. i reali feel bad n i reali made hym feel disappointed on our ferz date. so was like a train rushin n dashin across e road haa. runnin all e wae to mrt station . he was den cancelled not to watch movie but so somewher else.i was shit! he has been wantin to watch tat. gosh. wen i reach i sat down at bugis mrt waited fer hym. i actuali i saw a gur wore green stripe i noe it was hym but i dare not head up kos of my fugly pimples! haa.butit wasnt dat obvious ryte. n wen he approaches me. i was like. omg!!1 he is damn hot, cute, handsome and lot more good attributes dat cud describe hym!! arrgh!! i got this crush on hym hee. i like hys voice sounded so mature! aww..i miss hym now! jyeah!! haaa. well in e but yet! we still went to watch transformer as he told me he went n keep on searchin fer back up plan fer us n jyeah at PLAZA SINGAPURA GV . hee.=p in e cinema was haa.. like a couple holdin onto our hands he kiss my forehead he cuddle me it was awww! i feel so comfortable n yes secure! gosh boy ure my taste! hee.he managed to make me ferget S on dat romantichilarious moment. but still i was curious he brought is NEWURBANMALE paper bag contain two slippers of my fav colours black n red. haaa. but i dint think anythin. haa. hey u noe what he is a gentlemen. he give me way ferz before hym he open e door fer me, wen during goin down e escalator he give me e way ferz. haa.. dont u think is so damn romantic n lovely? then we headed to grab some quick bites n drinks. i was jus thirsty wen he is damn hungry. he is very particular abt food he ate. jyeah canoe polo guy.. cool huh! afta we grab wateva we wanted we both we to cathay n sat down ther to eat n drink. haiya no pics of us together. nvm we both meetin soon. n u guess wat we both got lots of same thinkin wise about ownself. hee.. wow like cute couple with gd chemistry! geez~ dream on ifah. haa.den jyeah its reali late at nite so we decided to go bck home. he said dis wen in train, i dun feel like goin bck as i wana overnite with u". gosh he said dat??!! i was like is dis fer real? m i dreamin or in a dream? haaha.. den i did said dis, but i feel i dun wana let go n apart from u." hee n i dun feel like i wana go bck too." but i hav to koz jyeah 'curfew' haa...we hug, n kiss ech other b3fore i alight. hee.. i reali had fun. n before i ferget tat 2 slippers he bought it fer me n he said dat tis is e most expensive thang he bought fer girls. koz normally he bought a choclate or ice cream.. hee. i realli miss u boi! muax!!!

fridae 24th july 09,
i went out with mimi, to tanjong pagar went fer interview but in actual fact we both plan to ruin everythin n plan to go tamp to buy stuff but duh irritatin sis asked us to meet her before e interview thingy n had lunch with her at wok express. haha we did some camwhore! we both are preety sick! haa. camwhore is our addiction.! jyea! afta all done! me n mimi went to tamp to buy my make up kit, n dress at isetan. haa. we both went crazy our e sale i mea e dress haha. n we both same pattern of one of e dress. haha... den we saw this minah rep haha.. don wish to say out her name
then we got bck home as she need to go bck n get things ready fer he fren chalet.

saturdae 25th july 09
sat was a hilariousn fun dae fer me n mar n waney. haix mimi wasnt ther to join us koz she went out! haa. nvm...me n mar went pr to meet waney ther as she was frm her tennis prac. jyeah we then went to aryies to bought some silly n cute accessories haa den we headed to macdonals to had our dinner me n mar had mac spicy meal. but waney jus sit see n smell. haa.. okeoke.. we shared alot of stories n jyea joke toghter. hahaha... about e man sleepin in e mrt.about e stupid new werds tat now kiddos create like alamak turn out to be aleerrmmak. den nak into narq. tak turn to tarq or taq. haa.. silly werds with funny pronounciation. haahaa. stupid! n mar was jus sitin down n join in e laugh haha.. dats all she knew. geez~ annnnnnnnnnnnnnndddd!! its camwhore time!!!! haha afta all those we went to e toilet n haha.. adjust our hair n stuff. waney as usual she went on peein makin some lovely n tasty juice haha.. opps..! well miss dos fun tymes. next tyme mimi u must be ther oke!! haha

lastly.....

SUNDAE 26th july 09.
at last e both amigos meet in a group. we four went so slack. haha.. but this someone who keeps on wearin LEVIS jeans. haa.. like ders other jeans . haa.. pity! jgn terase. haa.well we went to this tailor house to make our raya clothes. n wen it come to my turn i was soooo damn fussy over makin one particular clothes. haa.. but i did managed to get wat i want. hee feeeewwwh!! den we four went to KFC at whitesands. n we shared everytin among e four. n still crack jokes...i told mimi about e mrt man n she blurt out like HHAHAHAHAHAHA!!! crazy!!!
hey loves cnt wait to meet u guys!! meet up soon oke!!!

pichas of syahrizal, mimi n me, me n mar n waney
n e slippers, will be upload asap once i got bck my cable aites!!
wait fer ma return. haha..

so long n gd nites!

i found this on hys journal entry

2009-07-22T21:53:00.002+08:00

i found this in hys journal entry. afta i ask n read it i felt so hurt. =(

''Must've made you so sad to know that I was in love again Guess all the things that we had just wasn't good enough for you .........When I gave you my wordsyou turned around and you hurt me, tell me why Thought that you was my girl I guess that's makes me the same I was the one that gave you my heart How could you turn around and play these games Now, baby, don't you cry Look in my eyes How did you feel when you gave my love away Now that I'm doing better Moving on with my life You wanna try to come around just to say you want me You say you make me better but all you do is lie Cause every night you goin be creeping with another man I don't wanna be there waiting every night wondering if you are with another guy If I was to give you all my love again you would only turn around and leave me lonely I gave you all the love that I know I let you know that you're my heart and my soul So why you wanna give my love away Nothing in the world that you can do will make me wanna stay ''

i jus ask hym jus now. he said jus a song but infact maybe real..
wen i read it, it was like wat happen to me and hym recently. if he fall in love again, wat im left with? i feel like was jus a girl who keep on receiving hurts n pain..
ive been lovin hym till now. if it true. hav to let go. my heart was cryin n go on cryin jus to bare e pain in heart jus to stand strong koz of love. but in end i hav to let go e faithful love. but if this is e best fer us, i will accept it fer e sake of love. honestly i was not strong wen our love ends. n infact it happen n impossible fer us to be bck 2gather. maybe e next dae u'll find e happiness dat u searchin fer. if u found one, ive to let go of u n e feelings of love dat i kept fer u till now. if e entry was about me, im soori if i hurt u in anywae, but ive never mingle around wen i lost u in my grab.='(

why is this keep on happenin to me? n all i hav to do is patients n move on wen e scar u left is stll fresh.my life had never felt i was damn special. n wen i tot i wud get n catch it . but infact it lost in a glance of my eye. n it went of to somebody else. ive been tryin not to think of u but i cant. ive been hurtin myself by not eat a proper food. lie to all dat i cud move on with a normal life n start a fresh but infact i still love u , infact o still need u. i missed u everydae n nite. haix..

y?y? u give me dis kind of punishment GOD?
mar im sorry i cnt let sunnt go from my heart. but now he said dat entry maybe true. i was hurt by it. omg. i feel so sad n torn.='( how am i tyrin to get over it?omgomgomg!!!

i was cryink. (-,_-)

2009-07-18T00:30:00.002+08:00

hellohello.
im back activatin n active in blog after so much of things to do. ferzly to dat motherfuckerhacker or watsoeva. luk u dont hav to hack ma blog. if u arent happy wit me or ma wae. get over it. i aint me n i aint u. we both aint ech other. so don giv e fuckin bother wastin ma tym. u gain nothing but names! dun think u are great in duin tat, LOSER. u aint ma meal. ur taste is suck jus like a smell of swineshit! haa... gotcha bck baby!

next what happen today was my biggest n happiest day plus sleepy day=.=".
i guess i starts with my happiest day of mylife. well jus now during werkin tym came in numbers of customers she ask fer this n tat. im patiently waited fer her to choose her main choice. but then in e middle i 'corrupt' her mind with ma werds by convincin her abt e patters n colours. n guess wat she bought it 6 satin silk fer her 2 daughter so 3 ech. it lke wow. den fer her she bought herself a italian silk which cost 89buck/meter aft discount price. ouh god! plus her mum bought 2! total cost was at abt 800+ omg! i cnt believe i cud sell it tat much today. jyeah to u guys it may be still small amount but hey its my startin day of sellin cnt expect me to be e same pace as those experts! haa.. okeoe.. enuf of werk.

yesterday night! i spent my whole nite savin ol my blog post from e ferz one. thers abt 79 post. gosh tat alot! but i hav to koz insyd it der memory of my n sunny since e dae we know ech other.n crash into love life till it ends. hys pics alone n with glamour-his dog! he miss it too wen he knew abt e hackkin ting. haa.. kinda cute kan.. hee well i miss hym. n yesterdae also i tell hym all abt e feelings ive kept it fer soooo long dat i hurt myself jus to let hym think dat im fyne n cud move on without hym. haix.. i do still love hym.

i guess till here..

2009-07-14T23:36:00.003+08:00

missed bloggin n updates! =p

hello daily loves.

ive not been bloggin fer quite sometimes. due to werk, tiredness, bodyachin & kinda lazy koz nothing to talked abt. but todae im gonna tell u wat happen during e last few daes.

2nd dae of werk,11 july 2009.

i was late fer werk as i went to hav breakfast with kak lin. but i felt someting fishy. i told kak lin abt time management and punctuality, i said to her i think we gona be late fer werk. den kak lin says dat LADY BOSS will owaes be late to open e boutique. den i was like 50/50 to trust her sayin or not to. but i was damn hungry den i decided to put aside my worriness. we had it had BK. tiktoktiktok! clock strike 10am sharp! omg. i started to give kak lin a panic face n sayin wth a scared tone voice sayin dat ' kak da kul 10am!' den we dashed of to werk. walked as fast as we cud. i forcin myself to move fast pace as kak lin but i jus cant koz my stomach hurts. den we went to tis mamak shop. n we saw MR FAROUK(e men boss) he dais tis, you both are late better get urself in e shop n don try ur luck to come late lin! he was blamin kak lin fer all tat happen dat morning. den wen we enter e shop kak rizar was shoutin at her at her top of her voice and asked her y we both late. n is kak lin goan teach me about late comin n i got to noe dat kak lin was noted to be e queen of latecomin. so from der i noe. but jus cnt judge her koz i love her as my sis. she teaches me alot durin my dae at werk.okoke.

the followin dae, 12 july 2009

i was told dat im off on tat particular sunday! n went YEEEEEESSS!!! finally i cud make up wit my beloved crazy cousins!! MAR, WANEY N MIMI. so dat sunday oready being planned dat my nephew hafiz is gettin married on dat dae. den i was lucky dat i cud attend to hys weddin dae even i dint even talk to his family side. cnt be bothered.! dey are jus arent my fav. koz dey sucks. soo very e highly think of themselves n over react wen ders lots of handsome , n hawt hunks der. gosh . how i noe? like duh. jus see at one glance u cud get e pic of e characterism of them. dat dae i wore black songket, mar wearing blue songket, waney wearing argh i cnt remmber same goes to mimi. sorri loves!! i kinda hav this S.T.M.

we took alot of pichas. n yah will be updatin it soon! n we did a camwhore in e car tat belongs to my bro. haa. did some make up der touch-up . =p soooo e vain! jyeah of course my songket girls are so sweet pretty n jyeah e natural beauty insyd out! none cn beat them. they are MAX!.

So fast it comes to mondae. 13 july 2009.

werk as usual. reach der at 9.30am . i was waitin them fer fuckin 1hour plus. n den reached n gime a slumber look. wtf! bullshit laa lady boss . punctuality never exist in ur bloody damn soul! n ur owaes think about urself! within 3-4 days werkin fer u i cud sense e type of person u are. jyes u are good n i do respect u. but mind ur werds kak. ur not supossed to use vulgarities infront of ur own customers. but infact i did too. damn fuck boring dae. it goes this wae.

dat was afta i had my lunch if im not wrong. came tis INDIA LADY, went into our shop n askin me about chiffon, i showed her e plain one as she requested fer it so i brought her to tat section. she ask me to took out 5 diff colours! dat was RED, ORANGE, GREEN, BLUE AND PINK!

i hav to unroll dat damn thang n showed it to her. den she say nvmind put it aside fer. noe show me 10 diff kind of cotton. i was like arrrrrgggghhhh! chibai u lady! so i took out all 10 cotton n showed it to bloody damn her. den she say i want this n tat. den eh wait let me decide. den i went =.= '' i waited fer abotu 15 mins fer her to make up e damn mind n she now ask me to show her e italian silk n wrapped around her to see whther it suits her . omg! her blody was pheeeeuuu! but ive got no choice but do it. =s. afta all those end . in e fuckin end she said this. NEVER MIND THNKS ALOT!.

i went pissed of n shouted damn u fuckin typical indian lady!! ure such an ass! damn u!

clock was den struck 7 n i went to met deepak as he wana ask me out to catch a movie n we watched obsessed. n it was interestin n wow! rating *****.

afta movie we went to had our dinner together as supper. at mac. sojyeah we walked all e wae to mrt n we went split to own wae. hee so sweet of hym askin his ex colleauge out fer date! haa.

now all i think about is sunny. i jus cn tget rid of hym fer secs. i owaes think of hym wher ever i go. i reali missed hym. jus how i wished thing cud turn bck n being anew like it use to be. sunnyary. jyea dos daes are such a happenin in my entire life. but i jus cnt force wen things turn this wae. its hurts to face it but i hav to coz i need to move on with life.

but i cnt denied i do still love hym as before. i cnt ferget hym. he is e most n e ferz priority in my life. haix. but im jus sucks dat doesnt noe how to treasure sunny wen sunny is in my hands. i was lettin go one precious diamond.=( i totally missed hym. i hope wen e read dis section we wud missed me to. n sayin i missed u more den u do.

hearts u till ever.

ary <3>

my ferz dae of werk!

2009-07-10T23:26:00.002+08:00

hellohello! =)

todae my ferz dae of werk went soo 'the smooth!' haa alot of mistake. so good.!

it was tough though. but im havin fun ther. kak lyn n kak riza was so friendly n lovin. they treat my like own family. patiently teachin me one by one how it goes in retail line. ive learn alot todae. the name of e silk, material and etc. butbutbut standin fer long hours make my leg went tired n pain. jyeah not used to it. haa.. alot of 'thangs' ther.. haa. i washed my eye outside the boutique. kekekeke.. notie bitch!

n deepak was so lovely, i missed hym aft soooooo looong since we last met. he gave me a big hug.awwww.. ure sweet deepak! he treat me drink todae. ok laa better den nothing. he looked at me with one kind look. den he said this 'darlink, u loose abit of weight hah?'.

i was like wth? darlink? dier fikir aku ape sak. haa. tapi tak pe laa kan. wen i werk at mosi last tym we both were full time scandal. and cant be separated! haha. he is great guy laa..during our timw at mosi, we ate together, he sent me bck at trafic light sometime alot more laa. den wen he knew i was goin to quit he felt so disturb n sad koz im gonna leave hym. haa. so cute! jus now he say before i go, 'u dont want to kiss ar?'

i say noe thnks! haa. (aku tk nk la kiss kau ape aku dpt sak. n haha yuuucckz! i said in heart.

n jyeah tomorroe will be havin breakfast with kak lyn! kak cant wait to mit u! we will be havin at BK. haa. den i guess not be havin lunch koz BK is consider heavy meal fer me.grr.. fer sure i'll be gettin stomachache.=.=" n it was pain in e eye went i saw my stupididioticirritatingfuckin ex! he with hys new gf . he saw me and he try to jealous me.

oooh peeeelease laa. ive no tym fer dat now! do wateva u want. kissin, huggin, pettin or wadsoeva i don t giv a damn. none of ma business. try other wae jerk! ur tactic doesnt worth any hurt. its some kind of an old grandfather tricks! haa. ure deleted of from my memory looongloong time ago! i got something n somebody else in mind! =P

then jus now olso havin 'kenduri arwah' . haix miss my late grandfather.=( i misses takin care of hym, givin hym food, his medicine, his milk wen he is alive at that point of tym. gosh feel like cryink. n i miss my late dad too. i hope u both sleepin in peace.='( i will pray fer u, so tat allah will give lights to ur grave. n so ure not goin to be in e dark. papa n atok u both wiill owaes be in my prayers, mind n heart. dis is not a good feelin to hav. to papa, i will pray to ALLAH S.W.T dat to fergive all ur sins wen ure alive n put u in a place wher u are in peace n cn enjoy ur life at a better place which is called heaven. together with ol e good people.=(

papa i noe u cn feel me. i noe u cn feel dat i miss n love u.papa, now mama is havin her life with another man, i hope ure fine with dat papa. i noe its kinda hurt n disappointed wen mama went off missin afta ur absence in 2006. but papa i fer sure noe dat mama do still hav in her heart. i get to meet her lately papa. she's duin fyne now papa. stayin n a rental room at blk 45. jus behind my blk. but fer now im not sure if she's still der. haix papa, i miss u reali miss u. takkaire papa, love u!

no topic!

2009-07-09T23:07:00.002+08:00

UP YOURS!

HELLO diary,

jyeah i noe dat pic suck n kinda annoyin' ryte. forget about it. well today i went to CHAICHEE to withdrawl money fer 'mom'. actuali i was damn lazy to get my ass up to walked frm crib all e wae to dat posb machine. by rite der one at blk 42 jus opposite mine. den stupid contractor took it off. jus to renovate tis bloddy place. i tot dey gona make it as though our estate like a condo or someting. but infact it never reach to my expectation. e colour of my block was light green n light yellow. grr.. orbit colour! bad taste resident!

okeoke.. enuf of e stupid block thang oke.der funny incident happen wen i was on my wae to crib. i walk along to this block 30+ if im not wrong. ther a group of makciks sittin under void deck. actin like as if they are still a teenage GIRL! ouh come on makciks get ur ass up n get bck home to ur housewerk jus dun sit under void deck n wait fer an angel to drag u up to ur 'beautifool crib'. n guess wat happen. as i walked they look at me in a wae. they look at me as like a princess walkin infront of them with their eyes wide open.gosh!wtf! i jus walk with a 10cent face. i heard them sayin dis "lawa nyer bontot dier"(they were sayin about my ass!they say nice?!)makcikmakcik. like ders no other topic to talk about. talk about nice ass? haha..geez~ funny la u makciks.

tommoroe is my ferz day of werk i wonder how it turn out to be. haa. willi be siily looking like sotong? haa. asshole! ouh yar tommoroe oso my wonderful family is havin prayers fer our late grandfather i guess. but im werkin. gosh. den i need to rush in my time in reached home as fast as possible. haix, now somebody ruin my mood. shit! dun bother to talk about it. such a pain n sore in e eyes typin about wat happpen.okeoke.not SUNNY oke. not about hym.

oke efa stop being too emotional n stop behavin like one of e full time suckers in blog!

=.='

evrytime i blog, i think of hym. evry single werd n sentence ive made it make me think of hym everynow n then.it jus hard fer me to let go.i miss hys present in my life.i miss those golden days. oke STOP!.U shud stop now efa. please. dun hurt urself. dun keep on n goin on lyin to urself. especially ur feelings.. but i hav to make a choice! i jus cant puttin invisible hopes tat he wud come bck. miricale wont hapen in a glance.

okeoke.. enufenuf. =p haha.. ape saje la aku ni. asyik nk emo jer.

well will be updatin u guys about wat happen tommoroe!haha..

see ya. n good night!

muack.

xoxo

like der no life fer me.

2009-07-09T00:00:00.002+08:00

good evening loves!

ferz of all, im too sleepy too update my blog.=.=" koz im too tired. afta eatin tat tamiflu, i felt so tired, lazy to do stuff (housework or etc), sleepy. i was told dat tat tablets has its own ide effect afta eatin those. grr. no wonder. ive been being a sleepin queen.sleep all day n did nothing. becomin fatter! haa. still wany me guys? haa. bet u still. coz im an angel.duh! thick skin!haha..

goshgosh! ive to start werk on FRIDAY. boss postpone it to dat day as her child was havin tis stupid swineflu. kinda irritatin its like ders no end to tis illness.it keeps on movin n pass to another person soo on n forth.haix. well ive not yet gettin stuff ready fer FRI.its conferm puttin alot of pressure.my body achin all over. been spendin time at home sleepypig.!=)seriously if u guys were to be in my shoe it will be very borin fer u.like thers no life fer me.tis sat waney want to make a plan i guess. den sunday my cousin is gettin married. hmmph! i think i cnt go coz due to werk.hmm. well sorry to waneyLOVE. we'll meet soon oke syg. wen im free or my off dae. i make up fer u and us. as fer on sunday, sorry kak may i cnt get to attend n give u my helpin hands koz like i said i hav to werk. will be payin u a visit soon. hee. like real! dreamon efa. hhaa.

next, people i mean guys hav been tryin to make plan fer me n hymhymhym(diff guy). so call date i guess. gosh they think i got tym fer datin. haix been makin myself busy(sleepin)hahaa.well guys if hav opportunity we meet up kaes. but i still cnt as i do still love hym.=)not fer now guys.sorry i cnt accept ur date. well ask other girls aite to replace me.i noe i will be disappointin u but ive told u guys earlier dun put hopes n depend onme to make n decide date fer us.sorry guys tats not gona happen until i say so.well thnks guys.hee.some of them had been askin me to go out fer dinner, play pool, karaoke, watch movie shopping etc. jyea dey pay of course. u pals must be sayin tat jus go n take wat u want as they said its their treat.ryte? haa but nah. not now laa loves. koz im not ready n i noe myself dat i wont be dated with all this different guys.even some askin me out to go CLUB with them! gosh arent dey blind or deaf. ive told dem tons of time dat i wudent be putin my leg in dat dance floor even i love to dance.i noe myself once i get addicted, tat will be my addiction! n i will more often go ther n dance! no i wont. if u were to pass by tis blog of mine u may read e followin about me.

well. i guess tats it fer today lovelies!

xoxo

2009-07-07T23:47:00.002+08:00

heyheyhey

ive been strugglin at home fer e past few days. infact oreadi been weeks. didi nothing much todae. jus sleepin e whole dae. but something makes me awake n alive! its sunny. he called me jus now and we had a talk. jus fer awhile not fer long. we jus laugh wen heard our both voices. as if tat was our ferst tym talkin on e fone. hey imy so much.! wel hope to talk again with u soon. well i was told he is goinn to flight off to AUS wat a great n lovely place. den head off to malaysia to visit his cousin. gonna miss hym pretty much.

and jyeah jus left with 1 day to spend at crib then dats it! workin tym! haa. ferz dae of startin a job as a sales girl. my ferz tym experience as dat position. i hope evrythin goes well n fime on thursday. pray hard fer me jyea people. n i reali missed my beloved cousin

MAR, WANEY AND MIMI. they are my lovelife. they had been ther fer me wen im in need. wen im sad they are there. i dont need tym to come all over from thier crib. but they comfy me with their lame jokes . hilarious! i love them so deeply! guys ure such a great cuzzie i ever had. all e ups n downs n my stupid crap that u guys tolerate! haa. but we still close to ech other. haa. infact ever since u guys appeared in me i felt as though i dont need any frens or love. but jyeah tis is life. love comes n go. dat goes with frens. but hye im meetin efa soon. meetin her afta werkin tym tat is at 7pm. i told her wats e plan wen we meet. goin fer dinner, den lepakings! takin pichas! n lots more.! jus wait fer tat dae! n i cant wait. eagerly want to meet her. afta dat soon gona planned with meera!

guess wat i need to sae dis n i hav to tell this. 2 days bck theres a girl getin her eye turn red! get wat i mean? well i jus cudent understand y u guys get so jealous over wat i had in life. but as fer me i was jus e same as other human beings. imnot somebody hav tat 'thang' (wateva in their mind thinkin off) tat u guys get jealous off. wen i ask wats with u guys, they jus replied me shut n fuck off. ! wtf! did i do anythin wrong to them? did i owe them $? stupid n such a irritating creature. n guess wat they did, they passed around my damn bloody number to all e stupid n worthless jerk! omg! jus wat they are thinkin? cant jus u guy leave me in peace..haiya not happy cn still bring tis siilly matter in a proper wae rite? so childish duh! indeed! this morron jus gettin on my nerve. argh. nvm ferget it.

i dun need to entertain them ryte? so kiddos! get a life bitches. wat i guys did are jus so silly. wat u guys gain from it? haha.. come on. jus sit back n relax ur mind. haa. well if u jealous jus admit it. but such a stupid n idiotic kind of thinkin gettin jealous over somebodies wae kind of life. grr... dumbdumb!. haha.

okeoke.. enuf of those siily creature!geez~ im countin down off to my big dae.! haa

happy sweet 8-teen.! but haix tat wiil be on RAMADHAN! aha. fastin month.. but tats a gud dae infact!. well i had alot of thing in mind to make it happenin. but i think it wudent jus gona happen. hmm. some more its fastin month. nothing cn get in hand. well but alot of things in mind tat i need to get it. diedie must get it. haa. jus financial management.! this tyme round focus n loyal to work! haa n get high pay! wee!! n promoted. .

did i jus mentioned promoted?? haa dream on girl! not gona happen. haha.. maybe it will insyaallah!amin...

theres something disturbed my mind. i jus cnt get rid of hym in mind n heart.

i cud still feel e burnin love in heart. haiz is dis called love? i really love n misses hym so much. ive been puttin myself to get to noe guys jus to ferget hym. but i jus cnt. i fail! i cnt ferget hym. n e love keep on growin. haix.. wat am i surpose to do? GOD please make me strong enuf to face all this alone. almost everydae in life i think about hym. not even a single dae i missed thinkin about hym. haix. gosh. i hate tis feelin wen i hav to get so emotional. but y i jus cnt ferget about hym jus like how i ferget all my exs?

till here.

good nites!

toodles~

2009-07-06T21:51:00.002+08:00

hello lovesloves!

such a hilarious day today! went to own crib to fetch mar ther. we are goin to bedok inter. to convert mlysia to sing dollars! we went around and ask fer e rate. den we end up convert it jus beside 4D shop.=.=" den we went to order food at e hawker centre. n infront of us ders dis lil girl before dat we buy drinks fer ourselves. koz thirsty duh!.=P den we sat nearby e chicken rice stall. den dis lil girl kept lookin at me n mar. as if we owe her $. nvm lar still a kidos! haa. den came her bro buyin coke float. den she was temting fer it too i guess. she called tis mamak n she began to order her drink. she wants e same as her bro. then she said this. '' coke spider satu".

haha.. i was blur n given a stunt face. den of course e mamak dun understand wat she is askin fer. until she shows e glass of coke float dat her bro bought earlier. den i luk at mar face n i burst into laughter! hahahah!!! omg! she reali freak me out.! lol den i told mar about it . den she kinda slow chic! haa=) she began to lol wen she reali get it. haha.. wat e hell. reali had fun with mar jus now. missed her after so loong!

then about wat i did at todae aft went out with mar. i did nothing much todae. infact i did nothing at all! jus washed clothes. grr.. hectic dae todae! boring. den e whole dae internet. but then, i get to webbie with 'lovelove'!! haa miss webcamin with hym aft dat incident!
hey i miss you! haha.. den i saw hys smile n even hys PIMPLE! gosh im speechless. koz i miss hym so much. sooooooo much!! now watchin tv - DEMENSI. listenin to songs and chatin + bloggin + tagged & fb!

till here..

hug n kisses..

2009-07-05T11:57:00.002+08:00

hello and walla!=)

my fingers are jus too active n wanted to blogblog and blog. even though nothing much to say. ive been lettin my lappy on since last wed during in time in hospital.during time in tat 'hell', hav been online from wed till fri. den off durin discharge tyme.ive been duin nothing since den. koz life gettin bored! now watchin okto. stupid kiddos story.! listenin to DOWN, chattin with ex beloved sunny. hee. we are crappin in msn.HAHA! well, been stuck at home due to quarantine! damn! startin werk soon. grr. life must be bz aft dat. no time to chat as need to sleep early. wake up in e morning and go to werk. like thers no life at all.! haa.. must get use to e new environment later. goshgosh! sunny is readin my blog. infact he done readin it. hee.. nvm la. its past anywae. nothin to talk about. well. we both are friends now. fer sure i will get used to it. jyea.

well, miss this daes wher, i n hym joke around n crappin in msn. haa. sayin each other.! miss those times reali but thers nothing i cn change. let it be then. movin on as normal people. friends worth den havin relation now. koz not e ryte tyme yet. still lot to catch up in life. need to settle alot of things. sunnysunnysunny! haa. randomly sayin out hys name. well so? theres nobody cud stop me from sayin it duh!.=.="

ouh ya 8 july is e end of our quarantine dae! n yes!!haa.now he tot i delete hys pic off myblog. haa. i wont la duh! it all under archive! haa..

kae2 i shud stop! done!
hee

2009-07-05T10:41:00.004+08:00

good morning huggies!!

it has been a long time since i last update my blog. theres nothing to say much nowadaes. well it has been around 4 days stayin in kkh accompany my lil sis. she was suspected havin h1n1 and its positive. well i was also suspected but thank god i was negative. so lucky! hee. then now im at home sweet home.=)

people has been askin me how i and sunny. but yeah ders nothing to talk about now. coz everything's over. maybe now we frens? maybe. =) all is fyne now. but i wont delete hym off from my memory. he's special.=) jyea. buti hav to move on. jyea i admit its hard fer me to let go all at once. but jyea it takes life tym to ferget hym. i dun believe in a werd replacement. well it jus me.

jyeah now im fyne. cud ferget abit. but still making e memories alive. well jus wish and hope he cud ind someone better.=) friends tat cud make me alive now n breathe bck as a normal girl! wee.. cnt wat to meet efa, meera, dayah, n eila.. haha.. but meetin efa ferz!! efa cant wait to meet. n alot of things to catch up.! alot of stories to tell!! meera!! cnt wait to see u. haa.. our friendship bck in sec time! haa.. miss dos daes.! daya my new girlfren! hey baby will be meetin u soon. ! same goes to eila! haha.. rawk ma world! yeah baby! pichaspichaspichas!!!! alot to upload. haha.. well its fun gettin bck all our friends bck. especially in sec tyme! alot of things goin tru together!. haha.. e hing tat i cudnt ferget is wen me efa . nana cabot skewl! haha

well till here..

its comin to an end. =(

2009-07-02T09:41:00.002+08:00

i noe u wud read tis. i noe u still love me. i noe u still want me. please ...=(

it happen so fast, wen we cud never end get to be 2gather. ive never tot things wud end up in a mess n u reacted so fast to end this precious moment of us . we are gettin nearer to our happy moments tat we hav been waitin fer. but it never seems to reach e golden line. we had gone tru alot. n alot more problems we gone tru 2gather tat bitter then tis but we still cud over come it. but yesterdae is something which nobody wants it to happen but yet it happen. yes its my fault. if u never start it all it wont even happen . but why? why it happen so quickly? why must it happen wen i truely love u n wana be with u. ive been waitin fer u to accept me to be ur bride but it been destroy n ruin by bitch like me. ive never felt lost like this before. is this being called love dat ive been lookin fer.? ya allah. fergive fer e sins dat ive done towrds sunny. i wish cud turn bck e tym to cherish our moments 2gather. how u showered me with ur love n care + attention dat i get frm u. ur such a lovely soul came into my life. u brought me happiness n laughter of joy bck to my body down to my feet. ur are e wonder in life. u are e guy tat ive been lookin fer.

i remember those tyms we promise to ech other. not to leave ech other even we are not in a good term. i remember u told me u love me. i remember u told me wen u wake up early in e morning from ur sleep u will bck up and look fer ur fone to see msgs from me. i remember u told me not to worry im oni yours. i remember u told me all dat its still fresh in my memories. but wher are e promises dat u wont leave me? where? where are e promises u told me tat u will care fer me.? ive make mistake dat makes u hate me. n i remembered u told me we gona take care of mama wen we are togather. i did told mama about dat. even promise her to take care of her 2gather with u. i told mama all about us, she was happy to hear upon us wantin to take care of her. but yesterdae, she sound sad n disappointed hearin tat everything has come to an end.

she never tot it wont happen also. she never tot we both cud break our promises towrds her. she called u she tried to talk n tell advise us. she want us to go far n fulfill our promises together. buti dint seen want to ans her called.

i cried all nite n avoid my medic n my meal given by e doc n nursers. =( ive been dyingly to talk to u but u rejected me harshly. u said u love u said u care. but y u end tis wen our happiness is on e way to us. and we cud be together. i noe u love i noe u still care but i jus doesnt want to show it anymore. i noe u soft i noe u ther to listen but ur ego is conquerin ur soul. ive never regret havin u part in my life. im glad n syukur dat allah send u to me to make me happy n feel love. but y u end it all. wen i love n don wana lose u in my arm. y u take bck all e happiness n laughter in me? u told me u love me sunnt onli me. u told me u will wait fer me to get use to e situation in ur world sunny. where all those werds gone to? wher sunny?

u noe i love u. u noe im in thirst fer ur love. but y take it all bck with u n left me scar behind e wound?. u noe dat ive alwaes wanted u in my life u alreadi noe dat. n u agreed to us. please sunny give me jus one more chance please i promise u everythin will be diff. i noe im bad. but please give me jus one opportunity jus one to prove to u tat im worth it.please. dun end it tis wae sunny. please remember our promises.. n please sunny fer our sake of love n mama. please. jus one more.

2009-07-01T20:13:00.002+08:00

down lyric.

Baby are you down down down down down,
Down, down,
Even if the sky is falling down,
Down, downOoh (ohhh)

You oughta know, tonight is the night to let it go,
Put on a show, i wanna see how you lose control,

So leave it behind ’cause we, have a night to get away,
So come on and fly with me, as we make our great escape

So baby don’t worry, you are my only,
You won’t be lonely,
even if the sky is falling down,
You’ll be my only, no need to worry,
Baby are you down down down down down,Down, Down,
Baby are you down down down down down,Down, Down,
Even if the sky is falling down

Just let it be, come on and bring your body next to me,
I’ll take you away, hey,
turn this place into our private getaway,
(Bridge)
So leave it behind ’cause we, have a night to get away,
So come on and fly with me, as we make our great escape,

So baby don’t worry,
you are my only,You won’t be lonely,
even if the sky is falling down,
You’ll be my only, no need to worry,
Baby are you down down down down down,Down, Down,
Baby are you down down down down down,Down, Down
,Even if the sky is falling down,

Even if the sky is falling down like she supposed to be,
She gets down low for me,
Down like her temperature, ’cause to me she zero degree,
She cold, overfreeze,I got that girl from overseas,
Now she my miss America,now can i be her soldier please,
I’m fighting for this girl,I’m a battlefield of love,
Don’t it look like baby cupid sent his arrows from above,
Don’t you ever leave the side of me,
Indefinitely, not probably,and honestly im down like the economy,
Yeahhhhhh

So baby don’t worry,
you are my only,You won’t be lonely,
even if the sky is falling down,
You’ll be my only, no need to worry,
Baby are you down down down down down,Down, Down,
Baby are you down down down down down,Down, Down,
Even if the sky is falling down

this songs is so meaninful to me.
this is our love song. =(

dont leave me

2009-07-01T02:41:00.002+08:00

please dont go.
my love fer u jus too strong to let go. too much of memories about us. even we dint get to meet even fer once.those memories of us are jus to memorable fer me to make it dead n stop. i wana make it alive n i wana stay with it.=( oni if u cud tell u how much i love u will u stay n don go? please dun leave me. u are like e soul in me. my life dat make me sleep n wake up fer e next day. nothing cud replace u in this heart. e love tat i hav fer u are jus too priceless. i dun wish anybody to be in ur heart other then me. yes im being thick skin. koz i want u alone. i dun wan u to be elsewher. our love song dat make me stay strong. ive been listening to it over n over again without feelin any bored of dead.
remember during we wbcam ech oth. i cud see e truth in ur eyes.i cud feel u nxt to me. i will neva let u go. no matter how n wat happen. my love fer u are jus so unconditional. i cant bare to see u go awy frm me. i cnt leave wen u are far awy from me. i love u jus u. no one else. ur pic is my company wen i miss u. =(. ur smile is my light to bright my path. ur voice is my life to move on. ur love is my soul dat alive me. and u are my everything . ive never feel empty wen u came in my life. no ive started to feel it. i might afraid wen i closed my eyes n open tmr ur gone ferever from my life. den i dunno wat gona happen to me.
please don go. u are meaningful to me. u are e seven colours dat coloured me in my book of love. if i has to choose between loving you, and breathing. I would use my last breath to say I LOVE YOU. i will hurt myself if u leave me. i will do anithing jus to make u stay..='( please tell me wat must i do.. please.. im cryin fer u ..='( i love u sunny.

2009-06-29T00:07:00.001+08:00

i fall sick fer e last 3 days.

i had high fever which leads me lying down dead

on my bed.

i dint eat n cnat sleep well.

i feel so umeasy.

i got nothing much to say now.

the mood is not bck yet even ive recovered but not totally.

i will update more wen im better..

to suunylove,

thnks fer being so carin towrds me.

love u lots sayang.

meetin u soon honey.

muax

xoxo

stupid moody dae!

2009-06-25T01:05:00.003+08:00

ouh my god people! wat a dae i shud call it? damn boring!arrgh! jus wen im gona hav a job. dammn it! i feel so fucked up todae.. totally no mood to do anything.. feel so bore! life jus sucks todae.. it sucks alot! my time jus waste like dat. had no money in hand now. cnt survive! beta be dead den live in a world dat lands with no money inhand!

at home wat did i do? i did nothing at lot. got not strenght to do housewerk or anything else. i dint help much. i jus get naggings n scoldin frm dat aunty.hummph! im gettin tired of everything. jus like half dead fish waiting to being throw in e water n b alive again. okeoke i noe i talk craps here. but do i owe u things dat i cnt crap n my own blog asshole? u hate it fuck off.! u cant stand it? jus click [x] and get over it. it my blog n my say. i need no comments frm u people.!

u guys are jus sick n super idiotics morrons! neva get tired to noe about others life story.

gosh.. GOD please i need some thing in mind dat i cud come up with n make myself happy. n entertain my own self! arrgh!!! damn it..

totally out of mood n werds!..

sucks big time fuck!

2009-06-23T23:32:00.003+08:00

MISSING YOU BADLY, SUNNY

fers of all sory to sunny's fren. hee i crop his pichas. haa. well i need oni sunny pic. =)

we hav noot much talk nowadaes.he has been bz lately werkin n e morning n come bck late at nite. n hav less rest at home n lack of sleep as need to wake up early in e morning to go to werk. i realli missed hym. well i understand hys situation now. findin money to survive n not to burden hys parents.he told me tat before.he wana b independent on feedin hys on rice bowl without troublin families.i reali glad n feel so touch of e wae he thinkin.

although we rarely text or call. i noe he think of me in anywae.even if he is eatin. maybe. wild guess. well koz i think of hym evry min n sec.not even awhile. of course i cnt laa. haa. lame lol! but we did atleast text ech other wenevar we free.=)he dint neglect me anyhow. n he did ask me how am i or whether ive taken my dinner or lunch or watsoeva.n he didi kip hys werds n promises dat i will not feelin lonely or neglected. well alhamdullilah he is man with hys werds n promises.

my life had been such a bore nowadaes well lookin fer jobs but none of them respond to it anywae. been wastin my ezlink goin here n ther but arrgh!! but come on ary dun give up..

hee okee. i wont.. lame !! been stayin at home fer days.freaaaakin boriiing people. well i guess sunny must be sleepin now. nvm let hym sleep. gettin bored laa all dae n evrydae bloggin, tagged, msn n repeat all tat again e nxtdae.. but wen sunny is online!! i feel alive.!! haha,,

n jyeah.. efaYeolita bdae is comin! soon in few mins tym.

happi 18th bdae dear efah

hee..

badbad dream!

2009-06-22T00:09:00.003+08:00

hey readers.

i wana share with u about my dream i had last nite, it was so scary.and efa it remind me of u. but my dream are kinda diff frm urs. but its about death too. gosh.
in dat dream i was awake by a loud noise. the sounds is like a big crash. and a loud explode! boooom! i wake everybody in e house to let them see wat happen outside ther. but they seems not to hear me. i shout at e top of my throat! but still dey jus keep quite n not bother about it. but i was wondering whether they hear me or not. or my voice went silent! then i take my own risk by goin out ther alone by myself to take a look. from e top view at my corridor, i saw a pool of blood on e road.! then i saw alot of dead bodies. some head was being cut off, some parts of e body was seperated by e bodies. and thers baby too. gosh i burst into tears. i was scared plus shocked! i went down to take a closer look. n i saw this small boy running towards me he said ' kakak run fer ur life kakak' its not safe here.' den before he cud finish he talkin, he was being shot by a men with a gun. oh my god! he is such a innocent. but i was wondering if he killed tat child y he dint kill me as well. den i continue my journey. guess wat i saw. all my relatives was down dead lyin on e ground with blood . i cry out loud shoutin fer help but my voice jus cnt let out. it was as if stuck insyd my throat. i was shivering! i approach this man, i ask hym, excuse me wat actuali happen here. y evrybody was shot dead? y are all e innocents human was bing killed?? but thers no replied at alll. hello!!! im talkin to u old man.

i was tapped by a old lady, she said. thers no point of u talkin shoutin to anybody here. koz dey are not goin to hear u out. i was blur! i ask why s dat so? are they dead? i cn see e dead people?
then she replied wat if the other wae round young lady? my eyes open wide! my heart says wat are u tryin to say? she noe wat i was saying in heart. go on n search fer e truth my dear.

and people. before i wake upfrom that dream i was found dead. n thats y i was not hear by anybody.. =(
it was scray to me. but i dont bother koz it jus a bad dream.
haixx...

God loves me and dats y he gave me e next life wake up e next dae to breathe. jus wats e message by tat dream..=(

2009-06-21T01:33:00.001+08:00

FEELING SCARED JUS HOPE

EVERYTHING WILL GOIN

TO BE JUST FINE. =(

my happy moments

2009-06-20T22:55:00.002+08:00

hello diary,

geez~ yesterdae had a nice n beautiful chat with my beloved sunny.tat was e nite was my most sweetestmemory with hym.jyeah even at MSN.well bascically fer me love dont need to show infront of e person itselfs. doesnt need to meet face to face. u cn do it anywae even ur far distance frm e person u love.

not by sayin e werd i love u . telling evryone in ths world dat u love hym/ her. its e action dat play part in tihs which called 'LOVE'. its e wae u show to them how much u love n care.n how deep u willin to sacrifise. jus do n love doesnt need to ask fer in return. wen ure sincere in lovin e someone it will be fer sure ur love will be return by love. it cant be force. it comes natrually. people who love e someone on e outside n not frm e insyd. tell them 'u hav made e wrong step'. well, lovin e someone from e outsyd doesnt mean good or it sincere. it jus dat ure choosy, n ure not wiiling to accept those who are not perfect in ur eyes. but infact life no body is perfect even me. everybody feel love. it jus dat their love been rejected coz of few 'disability' like they are overweight, no figure, no looks, no personality dat impressed people, outdated, old fashion.etc.

which is so damn unfair to them. dont u hav e brain to think or spare about their feelings? don jus love them tru e phone n their sweet voice. all e love werds n e hopes that u gav to them . during e point u guys dated them n got to noe dat that guy or girl are simply ugly to u n brings u bad name fer like no taste of choosing partners. why bother?why must u think about wat people said? but u people sometimes think highly fer urself. u always need pretty n hawt stuff babes. but u dun noe them frm e insyd. u noe wat i mean by sayin tat.

even jus 2 months noein hym. i cud feel dat he is e type of guy tat evry girls dream off n to be with. i felt lucky to noe smebody like hym.in e fers place i tot he is e same as those guys ive known b4. tat go fer e "assets". but infact i got it wrong n he manage to prove me wrong. he give me courage n motivation of movin on with life. im here not tryin to bring hys name on top of e world but it jus e matter wat i think n feel about hym. yesterdae i tears of joy. because yesterdae is e dae i realy feel e love comin towrds me n give me sense of love enterin my soul down to my feet. afta i heard this song by lil wayne n jay sean - DOWN. i noe wat he tryin to tell me. i noe n understand n i cud get wat he wana sae to me. tat nite my heart pumpin fast follow e beat of e love songs. i repeated it as it has become my drug dat addicts me to it. i dint noe he is dat lovin . so called romantic? yes he is fer my personal point of view.he treats me so well n observed me evry step of my daily life.with e love werds n e love phrase.i noe tat wasnt jus any sweets werds jus to make me feel hapi . but i noe it from e bottom of hys pure heart.i noe he love n i noe he care. i cud sense it. i cud feel it. my instinct told me so.it always rite this tym. i hope fate is beside us.tat nite was a surprise fer me. which i wont ferget.it will remain fresh it mind n nver will fade.ive confirm about my feelings.he made me so bright. he make so evrything. he had fulfill e empticious heart of mine with full of love.yes at times we did argue about small stuff but he make me smile weneva i feel so down . lonely. i dunno about u guys maybe i think im too over react over this love which to u guys is not confirm. but i don care.im e one who feel it. i cud feel it. e burning love waiting fer us. n evry niter i keep on saying.' thanks ALLAH fer sending me SUNNY to me. a guy who willing to accept me fer who i am. n dint bother about wat i am.' i keep saying tat non stop. n i had dis dream. i dream of an old man. i met hym in my dream tat was at a random bus stop. he saw me frownin n lookin so sad. he approached me and said dis which shocked me. "cu, jgn kamu bersedih. tiada gunanya tangisi atas org yg sudah khianati kamu dan tiada gunanya kamu merayu kepada org yg sudah hancurkan kamu. bangunlah kamu dari tidur mu cu n sedar la bahawa cinta mu sudah ada di depan mata hanya tunggu mase untuk menentu kan kalian". i did awake afta dat dream. it reali gives me a goosebumps. dat was at 3am in e morning. maybe ti u guys it was jus stupid dream. but i think it send msg to me. love is infront of ma eyes. i was thinkin who e person is. then i heard voices saying "look infront" i think its my instinct told me to. i saw SUNNY's photo dat jus developed from e kodak shop. tat i said to myself :maybe its hym dat man talkin about."

from there afta wat happen to me n sunny in e previous days passed we quarrel i realised dat he is e person tat i love most n needed most in life.

GOD PLEASE give me tat chance to be with hym.

i reali hope dat he is e person tat im lookin fer.

n im ready to settle down even it still early to said tis.

LOVE U SAYANG.

ARY.

2009-06-19T00:24:00.003+08:00

heelloo..

haha.. enif of tat crap jus now i post.

todae i was thinkin about us. i had this calm feeling. its e wae i feel wen i was alone lookin at all pichas.people wud think im crazy, people wud think im insane wateva people's thought are, i dont give a damn n i dun care. it was me who feel it. e sensation wen im in love. i cud feel it wen i send me a sense to my feet n whole body. took a blanket cover myself up as though i was cuddled tite n cud feel e warmth of u. this may all sweets werds to u but it jus real n reality. tis feeling is alive. ! i reali does.!

I love you more than words can say.
I love you more and more each day.
I think of you each night and day.
Before I met you, my days were gray.
Baby, quick kiss me and tell me you'll stay.
If you go out with me, I'll pay.
Oh Darling, please don't go away.
Our love will never fade away.
With you by my side I can't go astray.
I'd like to kiss you, if I may.

waitwaitwait im not done!! haaaa

well i jus remembered about sunny's message.

Sunny msg @17:38:48 ; b, i mimpi u kol i .. den u kate tak mao kol2 u lagi semua... =(

haha.. kinda cute of hym jus now. he get so at ease wen i get to sms hym. ! haaa. i jus cnt wait fer hym to reply me todae afternoon. hee. well too excited till i dun noe how to express it. ouh ya.. see my tagboard. i was touched wen i read those msg he send me.i feel hyslove now talkin about dat. aww.. im deeply in love! im innnnn looooooove !!! i feel so lively n i feel so damn happy. he make me happy even im sad. actuali even if he did nothing to excite me im still happy wen hearing hys voice. i love u bie. u hav fulfill my emticious space in heart.thnk gos fer sendin u to me. hee. lovely!

stupid jerk!!!

2009-06-18T23:58:00.002+08:00

i got so frustrated and angry! wat is ther fer u guys to intefere in my love matters? i dun need ur comments people. i dun need any. cant u giv give me a piece of peace mind?! wat is ther to earn and gain from inteferring others people affair. irritating creature.! he thinks he is hot n superb, u are jus a boy tat noes nothing abt tis.. ouh come on grow up 21 years old jerks. do u think im scared of u? im not as timid like u did. i aint a girl whom u called 'minah' koz in my own world dat word doesnt exist fuck!

ouh SUNNY? dat name had been said out alot of tyms by u . why? he owe u things? or he owe u a cent? he is not somebody u think of. sorts of things in ur fuckin brain is not hym at all. ure wrong.! u are wrong NORRIZ! u are 10 times big fuck den those outsiders. haha.. wat a morron.! sayin things which doesnt even happen. create a wonderful 'fairy tales' as if ure a big fuck in TAMP. ur werds a jus lies norriz. ure nothing. slight pinch and ure gone foreva. ur looks are jus to innocent fer me to sae alot of things about u. pity u norriz. hahahaa. i cud make e whole world know how big fuck u are. small matter make a big huha. ur stories cant attrct people norriz open ur eyes idiot! people are jus playin around with u. infact it has been along time ive waited to tell everyone about u asshole. LOL! ive hold on to alot of creative stories about wat u told me the real u. haha.. which to me is sucks big tym. ur stories are all rubbish! dump it n burn it up norriz ure suckz . even ur own family cnt stand lukin at ur face. cause of ur attitude tat make them face n carry all ur duins.. wat a shame boi. its tyme fer u to get a life boi. dun sit n stare coz u gona drop dead! WELL back to ur stories, . . .

he said he hold hys area - which to me is a crap
he said he beats people up - as fer me hys face is e one tat need to be bash up
he said he aint a scarycat tat scared with all those junks outside - which to me aint true haa. he is a mice!
he talk much about tis about tat - which to me hys werds are all lies n creation to make people think he is a hero!
he said he bought a branded bag fer hys ex - from wat i noe he dint hold much money n still depends on hys mum tats wat hys mum told me.
he said he is strong - which i was told he is a cry baby
he said he dare to do anything - from wat i observed he feel alive wen thers big superb guys around. haa.
he got alot of werds to say - but in real life he somebody who cnt deal with people. haaa. big age but still a boy

wellwelllwell. i think enuf for now. koz frm here you guys noe who is he actuali. haa..wellactuali im not done yet by nvm.. haaa. cnt be bothered oreadi. well i miss u my mr sunny!! loveu lots syg...

oh my god ary !!

2009-06-18T02:56:00.002+08:00

wallaa...!!

hahaa.. ary wat a blogskin! jyeah well u guys must be thinkin am i ryte or am i not ryte? haaa =) well actuali i changed this cause of my love. haa. he criticized my blogskin n songs earlier badbad!! haa. poke hys eyes.. haa. he said it suck! omg! haa. but nvm wen i hear it bck.'REWIND EM!' haa yeap kinda sux! so i found dis blogskins under ermm opps i fergot e category of which. nvm haa. i find kiut n gerlish. so i think sunny wud prefer this hmmm jus wait till he comments it, if it not to hys expectation den hav to change it again .. haa.

tat all.. jus to update hee..

love u syg.

2009-06-18T01:06:00.000+08:00

good mawnink journal,

actuali im kinda tired to blog. cause ive been sleepin late n wake up early in e morn. well as fer todae boreddom strike me but not as the dae before. haa, todae i went fer an interview at katong complex and changi airport T2 i guess. at katong complex i went fer interview as sales assistance, well wat i was told. tat shop was selling all halal products dat inport from diff countries like new zealand,austrialia and south africa.e interview went smoothly n perfect. n tmr i hav to go to their head office at admiralty omg! dats far.. gosh i duno whether i cud make it at 10am.damn! supposingly i hav to go to toa payoh fer interview as well under wingtai but i cancelled it as not much tym left. so i had to flee those chances. nvm. haix.. butbutbut tmr im not sure if i cud make tru. hmm. afta done all e question dat curious me. =) i went off to paya lebar. i was like a baby lost her wae. i got no idea wher i was heading to haa.. i den saw popular at level basement i guess. i browse around n i found a sketch book. so i grab it n NETS it. haa. upupup all e wae. escalator up! haa.i was den saw this few mats hmm,. no tbad but sunny beta den eva. like duh! i walk infront of them n i heard dem talkin about a girl i was den blur at moment i was stunt! noe wat! they sae??

mat wearing cap:"maots per ni minah. bontot sek! haha!"

fuckin shit dey were lukin at my butt! asshole ! n yet call me MINAH??wtf! i aint no minah oke guys get it?
all e wae dey were talkin about ma butt. i felt so ashamed. gosh i was blushing n cud see my face turned red.! such a big morrons! they were headin up fer smoke break i heard then i wana avoid them n i went insyd e this fashion outlet. before tat while i wass walkin they were sayin "sombong sey tak senyum kat kiter org2 ni" i jus shut my ears with headphone n walk in tat shop! i waited fer about 10 mins.i went up e escalator i still see dem ther.. haiyaa... i jus walk n dont give a damn! dey did followed me to e mrt station arrgg! looks like pshyco! nyaahaa.. but like fer reali oke. ! den they stop me at this mr bean small shop.. they took off their fone n saed." hey sweets can we hav ur nos?" i sae no as i was headin in a rush to meetmy fiancee haa.. like real in actual fact i was goin to changi airport, haa..

reached T2 den i continue my journey n i saw BREEKS i went in fer an interview i was approach by a chi guy he was so polite n cool haa.. we offered me to hav a sit while waitin fer e manager to end their meetin. meetin over fer about 15min of waitin. =) den i was called up to see e manager .. gosh i was nervous. as alot of eyes lookin at me. am i a clown u guys lookin at? i was interviewed by a philiphine maam i guess. haa.. had a coversation very exciting n interestin.. such a hilarious manager.. but i wasnt conferm yet to get place ther. she told e if i was tposted to town area wud i be able to make it.. hmm i will struggle as imma not a good tym managment.. need to learn to..e purposed of her postiin me far from home because she already had alot of part n full timer.. but she offered me to other outlets diff name but same company i sae i dun mind at all.. den she was asked to giv 2 days to consider.. hmm i hopei i wud get a place der.. hee..

so loong journal.!!

2009-06-16T23:01:00.002+08:00

wello darlings =)

ferz of all sorry fer not updatin about yesterdae. as i was havin a terrible n horrible dae plus my stomach pain was so pinching. ouch! grrr.. i stuck in e toilet fer almost an hour!gosh. imagine tat.sweatin n drench over own sweat!yuuuuccckz! had my shower to refresh myself up. i was lyin dead on e bed until sunny text me.then we had a chitchat fer about hmm..half an hour. ?hee.. all my pain vanished afta heard hys voice.
like duh! pathetic me! =) ouh my god! guess wat i still hav 10 more months to end tis so called 'HOLIDAY' but yet not even a job i get in. damn.n hav to spend daes weeks months at home!my life get bored. hav been planning out alot of activities but none came out to be fer sure to go! hmmph! well i feel so sick n damn lifeless goin tru dis n dat dis n dat like those daes passed.come on....!! what more else to think n plan out fer thing to make ot happen..?meetin sunny??? hmm not e tym yet larh.=) waitwaitwait n wait kaes.

tomorow i hav to go fer an interview at toa payoh! wow dats far.! haa.. hav to travel all e wae ther fer an interview. well hav to n willingly to go.hopefully tmrs' goes smooth n fyne.i oweas fergot to ask this ques to e interviewer. "what are the benefits i get if i work with e company fer long term?" hmm.. n e last interviwed was unsuccessfull dint even receive any calls or respond frm them. hmm.dissapointed. well tmr will b confident n professional. pray fer me yar guys.! if i was employ gona treat u guys. ermm some laa. depends haa.!NO MAKE UP! natural concept tmr! haa. natural BEAUTY-fool! hahaa..

now i fel like eating chcken royal baked pasta! haa.. wow.. with e cheese tat spread over on top of e pasta! tat will melt in ur moist mouth!! fuuuh!!!the taste was sooooooo scrumptious, appetizing,n luscious !!!
gona hav tat soon!! wana join? at PIZZA HUT! haa.

okeokeoke....

now lets get bck to wher it stop about criticising..
wana noe wat? she make damn big into this matter which is called 'DOPE!'.. urrgh..called ur guy up n teel wat u did wrong n yet e stupid idiot syded u? hey of course laa he syded tat jinx! they both are equally moron!okeoke.. im kinda lazy to entertain u guys! no wat jus one more werd n one more stepped u guys dead!

2009-06-15T01:11:00.002+08:00

hi again diary!

well im not at ease wen people criticised my love. what is der to talk about? ouh come on sillypigs, evrybody was born with a name given asshole!ther nothing funny about e name of SUNNY. duh! i dun find it funny or ticklish to laugh at. ouh.. or maybe u guys were born without a name? wat a pity.! sud i give each of u a name? i dun think so cause once i said it fer sure ur head down. suck big tyme ass! jus go n suck or daddy's bigdumplingballs! bite it hard n choked it! damn u morron!
if u guy just cant stand perpandicular on the ground urself, so dun judge anybody, mirror urself.!
dun get jealous over wat i hav in my hands, cause u will neva get to gain it. dream on bitch. maybe u people thin criticisingis a normal thingy in life which done by e sillypigs. but im not e fool dat u guys tot i cud tolerate. m not gona shut before i shut their bloody stink mouth! so wat if u think im making a big huuhaa over this tiny matter. well u guys dun feel it cause u guys are no diff frm whore! dogs! neva tot i hav a fren like u doggies! backstabber! well ive jus realised who u guys are. ure guys are jus powerful wen i got my back turned. get wat i mean loser? u motherfuckers are jus rats dat rotten insyd n spoilt bitch wit brains like monkeys.why bother about me n hym? none of your business dogs! well let me tell u this.
motherfuckers like u guys are main found in e trash bin behind ur moms butt!

so loong asshole.

2009-06-14T23:59:00.002+08:00

good moawink buggies! (:

i tot of sleepin early todae but i jus cant. my eyes still wide open n fresh like "freshly baked out from oven!!!" haaa. e picha above was sunny n hys dog glamour + e tattoo at hys skinny leg.hehe sowie dear.. just kiddin. haha.. UPDATE!!! H1N1 cases is now 34! SWINE! stupidpigs. okeoke. enuf . sunny is out to chalet at pasir ris.let hym be.. lethym hav hys tyme. pity hym afta wat happen yesterdae. n todae we both had settled it. thank GOD .feeeeeeeww! he fergiv me. yeay! well nomore doubt upon hym. givin hym mytrust..jus heard hys voice now started to miss oready .

kinda boriiiiiing! spendin my tym e whole dae at crib. like a dead fish . but im alive wen my beloved cousins came to crib jus now. mimi, waney hee. miss marGEnduts laa coz haix.. u noe tat. nvm. still hav tym.

n we did something tat make us look like an morron! haa. e wae me waney n mimi communicate with mar is tru her window jus shout across e lift corridor. pity her. she was curfewed fer 7daes jus like in prison hee.. lucky her to hav dekstop in her room or else boredom kills her in her room! haa,!(: n not to ferget todae is my superdupersillywillycurly sis 8th bedae!! happy berdae sayang!! haaa.. n later on will be goin fer swim at bedok complex. haa. sengket! nvm as long shes happie n get to swim in e pool.gona make her dae later on..ive been spendin my daes at home. hmm.. damn such a lackluster.!

i cnt denied todae oso very,dull, featureless, characterless n lifeless dae of my life! argggh!! it feel like stayin in a cage! nyaaahaahaa!

gosh its monotonous! it means the same day afta day. yes its has been like dis fer daes!!

haahaha.. im runing out of words to describe boredom!!

IVE MADE A BIGGEST MISTAKE IN LYF.

2009-06-14T11:59:00.002+08:00

GD afternoon diary ,

sunnylove i hope u read tis.):

ive made a big mistake in lyf. that is fer accusing my own love fer lyin n stuff. ive made hym feel so down n feel bad. iv misjudge hym fer no reason.im a nagetive thinker. i admit tat. im sorry . i tot i was rite. but infact he proved me wrong. n yes im wrong in seein upon his character n person. i dnt noticed tat he is sidin me wen hys fren being rude to me. i feel so dumb n embarrased. i felt so guiltycious. foolish me ! sayang please take bck ur werds.. please.. im willing to get punished over my mistake tat ive done. im sorry fer everything. im sorry ive been paranoid n demanding over something which i dun noe. n i react at e wrong tym. please...

he teaches me alot. he teaches me about movin on lyf n how important lyf is. he even ask me to stop duin all e bad things. so tat i wont fall into a trap. from der i realised hys love twrds me.. please syg fergive me. fergive e sins ive create over u. i make u feel so dumb. ure worth it syg u are.): its all my fault. i dun want u to go. i dun give a damn on wat people say abt me haunting fer ur love. bcoz all dis while u e one who giv me courage to move on. e motivation in lyf, ure not ego. its me who think highly fer myself.sellfish! so selfish!
im goin to make it up to u to make u think im worth to hav u. please..jus name it n wll do it fer u . as long as u stay n continue showered me with ur love n care.

love, i promise u no more of this. n im ready to face anything dat comes over me.. even its difficult fer me.
i hav to feel e fear n face e fact. maybe its bcoz of my past ive became scared of losin somebody i n love. its not a easy task to do n end it with a STOP. i tot i was a strong girl but in actual fact im weak. im weak in love. i dunoe how to think right, maybe im egoist. i shed tears wen i type all tis.

syg, now i noe e reali behind ur soul. i cud understand now.
i swear i will not repeat e attitude towrds in future. give me one last chance tat im worth it. u are e guy dat giv me bck all my laughter, joyfullness, my smile n evrythin afta wat had happen to me in e past. u make me feel at ease wen im down, u make me feel secure wen i feel so uptight. u make me laugh wen i feel so lonely. in fact u deserved all those also in life.. im sorry syg... please take bck ur werds..

this is e msg frm sunny early in this morning. i translate in eng.

b y u sae u hate liars all tat at blog , then at tagged. who is e person i wana noe. its me ryte? jus say it lar. jyeah im a liar.i scold tat guy who answered ur call.he dint noe who u are caused i dint save at my memory.they say sorry.n if u wanna say all sorts of thing jus say. i dun myne., scold me laa. i practiced my lion dance under void deck its not dat i went to flirt.u dun believe me ryte?huh. n i play without instrument jus e head of e dragon.haiz. my competition will he held in aug. jsu few more months.n wen i said tis i noe u dun like it.i oweas bz n almost all e time i make u cry. u noe i feel bad? u cry but u dunnoe e wads the real thing is. maybe i dunhav tym with u also n i nvr call u evrtym.yalar 24/7 bz ryte??hmmph. u noe wat i dun wana make u cry anymore.! or make u feel worried n herat pain. coz im dun like people cry bcoz of me. or wadsoeva. n i think i dun wana use hp anymore n not goin to login to msn or wat. maybe frm there u wont get frustrated ryte?

im not try to say anything la. coz i want u to be happy n trust me. but i think u cnt give me e trust. hmm.i noe its hard fer u to trust people like me.......

soory guys i cant go on with e msg dat he sent it to me..i cud feel it.. i noe he's hurt.. i cn feel it. b im sorry. i regret over wat ive done towrds u.. i love u i owaes love u b.. please. fergive me..):

2009-06-13T23:07:00.003+08:00

heylo again diary .

i had a great saturday ! my beloved nephews n nieces came to ma crib. they are all so lovely,chubby & bubbly! love them lots. but in otherwise it saddens me as well. as my best cousins had to quarantine fer 7 days because her fren had positive result of havin H1N1, her parents hit it as well wen they were at AUSTRAILIA. well it had been stated earlier n clearly tat Austrailia was e haed of H1N1 now. hmm.. wat a pity cousin. hope u nothing happen to u dear. rest well at crib. happy quarantine. (:

this morning i went fer my religious class as usual. todae diff uztad. he's from indon. well. todays topic is about "poeple who is being love by our RASULLULAH during HARI KIAMAT(judgement day)". whateva i learned todae it reali captured into ma mind. how great ISLAM is. afta classes ended. we say abit of DOA. most of e muslimah shed tears as wat eva e uztad says give us e feelin of at e brighter site. ok enuuf of tat.

todae oso in e afternoon, i giv sunny a called n we talked fer about 10mins? had a small talked. jus askin hym the 'always question' . he was quite bz wen my lin ehad been terminatd fer awhile. need to settle it by tmr latest mondae. it has been days we dint even txt ech other n shared daily stories happen in life ech dae. kinda missed hym lots. he did txt me yesterdae nite. but i replied hym by via websms. tat e onli wae even such a troublesome method of msgin. damn it. haha (: he even told me not to worry koz he wont let me go.
i miss u love.hmm..
will be waitin fer u syg ..

2009-06-13T00:59:00.003+08:00

boooooooorrriiiiiinnnnnnggggg!!!!!!!!!!!!

wat shud i call todae? superduperheticdae??gosh boredness is killin me e whole nite!damn it! suuny dint even corl me at all todae!wondering is he think of me or what.e whole dae at home doin nothing.gosh life such a bore! sick and tired laa.):not even a sms from hym.. get pissed!hummph!so what if ure bz?doesnt mean u cnt even slot a min to text me or what.argh!
im sorry im jus too emotional.f!

now what? ouh jyeah. before i fergot. haa. jus now i went out wit a 'fren' haa. went to bedok n buy food to eatfer dinner.den we sat under void deck haa.. jus i noe todae afta fer long. shes a smoker n a gummer.! wtf!so wild huh. haa. jyeah but nvr to be blame fer such duins as parents lag of love n concern fer own child. maybe. but fer her case not very sure. haa. only 16 but yet.. haa. i think wosrt den me? haa.
dunnoe e reali me yet. nvm jus let be it secrets between me n myself, heea. dont need to make such a huuuuhaa.thingy well not important of exposing ur own butt!past is past.but if i still do, tats none of their business cause i grown up wit tis life n jyeah none hav e ryte to stop it coz i lead ma wae..those motherfuckers jus step bck dun move a inch of r foot step or ull regret. jus sit n play pick-up-stick with ur damn mummy n keep it tite under armpit.well im too harsh on ma werds? i dun think so koz i noe u guys deserved it.! dos idioticpatheticirritating creature!neva i ask fer ur opinion or any to comments out from ur fuckin mouth. well if im bad be it, if im a spoilt brats leave it koz u earn nothing fyi ur werds doesnt giv a fuckin affect to me. ur werds are jus craps! you noe whu u are bitch! i dun think i need to say out ur name. its oke.ur name will be a secret in my hand.one more step of tryin to ruin me n my life. i give u suffer which u never dream off to happen.

NOW IS ABOUT BAD MOUTHING!
i had a fren who bad mouth me during ITE life at BIshan!shes such a whore! bad mouthin me like no other thing to do.maybe u think ure great n evrybody likes u. hey bitch.. c'mon. ur ntg but burden!fuckinsjit like u dont deserve to be call human but in actual fact.. ur are no different from doggies! ur mouth stinks with all dos stupid dickers who feed u.but im havin fun with it. haaa.. well doesnt concern me at all. by all means say out my name to all of ur whore frens.. thnks fer makin me famous. haa..

so loooong bitch!

AT LAST SUNNY TEXT ME.
GOSH I MISSED HYM..
FEEL LIKE CRYINK..
I LOVE U SOO MUCH SYG,

friendsfriendsfriends

2009-06-12T10:34:00.003+08:00

good morning again..

i kinda missed my secondary school daes. haaa..all my hilarious frens. well my art mates.they are wonderful. i wish i cud gather bck them all and start all over again.(: during math, english, mt, combine science, art, elective subjects and stuff. e most exciting part wen me, adilah, naqiah been chased out frm cikgu slamah's malay class. haa. we are unwanted ther. but then afta awhile cikgu salmah n me gettin closer. shared problems 2gather but point of tym make fer feel irrtated by my stupid attitudes! haa. den during combine science wher our handsome mr leonard kok teaches ur boilogy. wee... damn gorgeous. (:cant get my eye over hym. till now.haa.during art. me,zarifah,horshi,raihana,ella,and others. had a great tym crackin stupid lame joke which we still laugh abt it. haa. such a memories. raihana oweas with her silly face, zarifah with her fone n dance step. haix.. misses them now.. n miss e frenship.

the best part of e best.

me, zarifah and raihana.

we three are e queen of truants n quite alot of tyms being caught by abraham the wickedwitch! haa.

tat point of tym our GCE N is jus around e corner. and yet we still with our shameful attitude, truancy,

well we 3 bring our clothes frm homie den we went to town, bugis, by e beach, stay at zarifah's crib. palyin internet at kallangor efa house. den wen teacher called our parents we giv lame excuses. hahaa. sometimes mc without reason. nana mc we both follow mc. haa. cool huh.!

wish cud turn bck e tym. now we are separated cause diff skewl n locations. but i do sometimes saw efa. e last i saw her was at simei mrt station. she's off to meet her boify at pasir ris. hee, super cute..

nana, i rarely saw her e last was at her skewl wen i came down to ITE East to appeal fer my course ther den . run wen abraham comes n more other part of us i cud still remembered. heee.

see u guys around.tats it.hmm.. i wondering how she is now. haa. we used to call her sutun. seriously those memorable stuff is jus to priceless to throw n giv awy,(: hey guys, even we r not close as b4 or some of you guys went MIA i do still remember all out silly character n attitudes tat we cause teachers to almost giv up on us haaaa. ur guys are such a great fren in life during my life in BEDOK SOUTH SECONDARY. jyeah even we ever had miscommuniation or misunderstandin between us but we still cud get along well. by callin names n stuff. haa. hide people's property. disturbing others n teachers

especially zarifah raihana adilah horshi athirah n e babes in 4Hantu. haha tat name of class was given by mr majid our PE teacher.

2009-06-12T09:35:00.002+08:00

good morning diary!

havent taken my bath yet..weeee!(: well.. ive read my frens (efayeolitta) blog about COPYPIGS! still not sure wat is copypigs??is people who simply not original stuff.they cut and paste wat they think cool to them infact, superidiotics humans!well wat writen on her blog is damn true.because they dun hav e speciality of havin own creative werds to describe them.they are jus being motherfuckers who are born to be a copypaste child.such a dummies.and ya u oso dont hav to use such a big werds to put in ur blog, bloggers!like wat she wrote in her blog.haha..well copypigs such a hot topic efayeolitta. haha.. i noe her jyeah.she hate copypigs! well not only her. try do it if finger pintin at you jyeah dont headdown bitch coz well u are truly somekind of dogs tat follows what owners say..haha monkey say monkey do.!! (: common cheapsk8 change it..so dat we know who u r. but i think i noe 1 of them who is copypigs. nah. just keep it to myself. i read it wit ma eyes. n jyeah shes one of e idiotics found on efa's linksphere.

pathetic sey! 2 more of dem.. wondering who .. haaa. sorry such a kaypo of me. :p

well efa cut off their tits n ask dem to eat.! haha..

last long with ur love baby!

superduperhappyhilarious day!!!

2009-06-11T00:48:00.006+08:00

todae is such a SUPERDUPERHAPPYHILARIOUS dae!! went fer job interviwe at Parkway Parade Isetan . hope i get tat position in Sales Assistance..realidesperately need tt job.!then i saw my long lost fren..waited fer her outside e HR's office.while tat.. i saw dis billabong bag made of some sort like a 'rotan'. damn hawt!(:gona strike fer it.wuuuhuu...!!afta e interview section ended,went fer my lunch.i had my labut no hap..
nvm.. den we went ot buy onkie!! wee.. had our ferz stick and wentksa weee!sharifah had her mee hongkong.den we went to e op boutique search fer my lappy cover. bck home.. well nothing much is done der.. and in e bus thers tis hilarious man crackin joke in front of me.. damn hell. i laugh as though i noe tat man fer years ..haha!(: cnt pretty much rembered abt tat jokes..
i started to miss sunny oreadi..miss his voice! miss webbie with hym..to see hys cutielips! hee.
he called me jus now.. afta e whole dae went MIA haha.. had werk to do.. werk as mover.. gd laa. rather then do nothing at home. ouh yeah.. bck to our conversation.
i tot todae was my pathetic hetic dae sey.. but den wen he called all my boredness gone vanished! hee.. hys fetchin hys mommy.. hee.. so cyiut.!well planing to diet.. ahaa dream on gerl.!but rest assured im sure i can. yeah!guess wat i had apple in e morn with my HL milk.. damn finished! need to buy it tmr.. i had tat fer almost breakfast n lunch.. no dinner. onli jus now. had laksa, haha deliciooooooooooooooooooooooous!! haha..

PLEASE LEAVE US ALONE. ):

2009-06-10T00:32:00.001+08:00

Y IS THIS HAPPENING TO ME?? Y?

I love this boy with all of my heart yet all of these assholes wanna break us apart they have tried for weeks, used every trick in the book resentful motha fuckers, u don’t even bother to look we have a love so strong, pure and true but people gotta hate and say "oh, he don’t really love u" they don’t understand and I really don’t care they don’t live my life, they don’t have to be there they say I am too good for him and that I deserve better than what he can give me but what we have I don’t think anyone can really see they only look at us jealously knowing we are something that they could never be they try to end our love so they can feel more adequate so they can feel like their petty lives are actually worth a shit but what they think they know, and what they think they see I have to try not to let it bother me cause I know what we have and I know what we are I love will forever grow, together we will go FAR

IM SICK

2009-06-07T20:42:00.003+08:00

FEEL SO SICK..

PICHAS!!!PICHAS!!

2009-06-06T21:26:00.001+08:00

baby sunny feat galmour!

2009-06-06T20:12:00.002+08:00

baby sunny feat glamour!!

damn kiyut laaa. eu both..

dog!!! hee (:

well 2dae 6th june 2009. i weent to expo with ma craziestdumbestbeloved sis & cousin! includin superhyperactive niece & nephew!ahaa (:! gosh! poeple tot i was e mummy of tat niece of myne! hahaa (: . can sae 'HOT MAMA!' like duh ! (-_-)"

den we went to look out fer somestuff .. den i saw one hawt stuff haha.. but too bad.

hys married!!! wuuuhuuuu! ooops! sunny! heee.

wellwelllwell!!! i saw den ANIMAL bag.. wow gorgoeus! i bought it fer $19. hehe.. ori price is $49!! down by $30!! great sale.. hahaa. jyeah .(:

straight afta dat we went to fill our empty tummy ! weee!!.. at LJS! yummmy!

went homiee.. damn tired den chatted with my lovelove sunny. hehe..

webbie! yeay! den commented hys pichas with glamour! updatin my blog and tagged! hehe..

tmr hmm.. no plan yet .

jus now sunny tot of mitin me but den he plan it last min.. grr..

'bite!' hys tongue! ouch! hehe..

yesterdae

5th june 2009 ..

was such a bore!

damn boring! did nothing at home. i jus cooked black pepper fish. abit salty i dunoe wth i thinkink off. haa. day dreaming.! den yesterdae oso he tot of mitin me . still last min plan .

i think hys a last min guy . haha . jkjk .!

my hair was like mess! cut bangs . but yet cute . he like it so be it . jyeah!!

2009-06-03T23:44:00.001+08:00

SUNNY LOVE ARY!!!
love you truout e eternity baby!!
deeply in love with you!!!

2009-06-02T11:52:00.002+08:00

wello. sorry fer not blog sinc e last i post. im busy duin stuff..search fer jobs. plus abit lazy kos maybe to lack of sleep. well.. e last i blog was on 30th of May.
yesterday was 1june2009 it was on monday. went to e expo thers john little sales. den went simei tolok out fer my keyboard.(rubber) as my laptop's keyboad kinda doesnt werk some of e letter spoilt. tats letter V. hahah pathetic!... then had u dinner at long john silver(LJS) (:... den headin home by bus. kinda a boring dae fer me.nothing much todo.
weelll.... todae im suppose to go to JBwih my bro n sis in law. but im not allow to as my aunty kinda not in her mood. not sure wats wrong with her...so i guess i might be stayin at home duin nth..gosh i missed sunny. bi..... imissedyou so much laa sey.. (:
ouh ya.. not only dat todae is my mama bdae.020609! happy berfdae mama.. may allah unite us bck 2gather as a one whole family.. btw mama. sunny wish you happy berfdae.! may god blessed u mama. i will owaes love u.n owaes pray to allah tat to protect u. n bring u to e path wher u belong to. ma,i missed u. i missed u showering me with ur love. infact i wanaa stay wth u n take good care of u. i dint blamed u fer wat happen fer e past 17 years. i knw n i cn feel dat wat u did is fer ur beloved ones.dat is me, adek, kakak. n abg. since dad passd away fer e last 3 years.(010906) dat was 5 days after my 16th bedae. n on 020906 oso e dae i knw he was my biologycal dad.):. dat moment i cudnt fergive myslef mama. fer ill-treat papa. i hate dem mama.. i hate dem fer not tellin me who is he.!! before i cud take care of hym, he 'go'ferx before i wana grant my own wish. but it was toolate.jus too late tobe sorry..! papa im srry imtruely sorry fer wat had happen..)'; mama i wont leave u mama.i willtake care of u wen imstill around..
sunny n i eva discuss abt tis.. if i n hym were to be 2gather,we both will take care of u. n love u.. i wont neglect u mama. ipromise.!

allah,
give me strength to stay strong.
this both hnds i hold up to u.
please take care of my mama.
fergive her.. ilove her..

Sad stories : LIFE and DEATH

2009-05-30T22:32:00.002+08:00

hav u ever came across a news about a guy named adam and get to noe dat he's actually frm skinhead.? i had a fren who told me this, about hym and, wat happened dat about couples of years ago. . .

it starts with . .

he was known as Adam like i mentioned above. i was told he was from ITE Bukit Batok last tym and werk in pizza hut which im not sure about e outlet. He was a pleasant, helpful and a cheerful guy.
until 1 day he reactd weirdly. he asked alep(yazid's frend)"alep tonite wana go JB?". alep replied no, as he was tired n not in a mood to go JB. Adam was den hav to send out orders. after every orders was sent out, Adam will keep on askin his fren(alep) whether he wana go JB dat nite. then of all e werds n sentence, alep was oso unsure dat he cud said this "can ar we meet 'UPSTAIRS'". as wen i knew dat alep was sayin tat, i had my goosebumbs.. but i was oso being told he said tat as jokes. even alep rejected Adam's offer to go JB but yet dey still go. as dae change to nite. as sun change to moon. e night finally come. tat nite was at e bus stop which i was unsure where. Adam say " hey alep i ferget my passport." alep den said "Dam i give u two choices, either we both go bck n take passport den we meet e rest or we meet them fers den together we take ur passport den straight to JB?" Adam told alep tat he wana meet e rest n togethr take e passport. as wen he reach n get to hys frens dey all went to take e passport of Adam. Adam speed up as he was in a hurry. hys frens were all behind hym.

THIS PART WHERE I TEARS ... .

as Adam speed up, a taxi wanted to make a turn if in mot wrong den Adam was not aware of it and both taxi n Adam 2gather with hys fren at his bck sit clashed into an accident. Adam was stick at e taxi wher hys bike was break into half and hys fren was not badly injured. alep was shocked. he stop n ran twrds adam. surprisingly Adam was not injured jus a slight small cuts. so alep tot nothing serious happen he asked "adam are u ok? adam ure all ryte, ryte?" den Adam claim he was in pain and hys eyes started to close. as though an angel is takin hys soul wif hym.. but it reali happen as they all was told Adam passed awy while otw to hospital in e ambulance..

From there . .

Alep was den regret. he said only if he dint say out dat 2 choice.. dis wudent had happen..

its e matter of life and death.

FUNNY JOKES!!

2009-05-30T00:27:00.002+08:00

"A mother was taking a shower when her2 year old son came into the bathroom and wrapped himself in toilet paper. Although he made a mess, he looked adorable, so she ran for my camera and took a few shots. They came out so well that she had copies made and included one with each of their Christmas cards. Days later, a relative called about the picture, laughing hysterically, and suggesting that she take a closer look. Puzzled, the mother stared at the photo and was shocked to discover that in addition to her son, she had captured her reflection in the mirror wearing nothing but a camera!"

"A woman and her sister were at the mall and passed by a store that sold a variety of nuts. As they were looking at the display case, the boy behind the counter asked if they needed any help. The woman replied, "No, I'm just looking at your nuts." The sister started to laugh hysterically, the boy grinned, and she turned beet red and walked away."

"A lady picked up several items at a discount store. When she finally got up to the checker, she learned that one of her items had no price tag. Imagine her embarrassment when the checker got on the intercom and boomed out for the entire store to hear, ‘PRICE CHECK ON LANE THIRTEEN, TAMPAX, SUPER SIZE." That was bad enough, but somebody at the rear of the store apparently misunderstood the word 'Tampax' for ‘THUMBTACKS.’ In a businesslike tone, a voice boomed back over the intercom: ‘DO YOU WANT THE KIND YOU PUSH IN WITH YOUR THUMB OR THE KIND YOU POUND IN WITH A HAMMER?’

An introvert went to bar and spots a pretty looking woman sitting on the stool. He mustered all his courage for long time, then timidly approached and asked her, "Ma’ am, would be OK if sit here and talk with you?" She was alert, suspecting this man, and responds by yelling, "No, I won't sleep with you tonight!" Customers in the bar started staring at them. The embarrassed guy quickly returns to his table dejected and ashamed. The young woman waits a little and then goes to the guy to apologize. With a smile on her face she says, "I am sorry if I embarrassed you. You see, I am a college student in psychiatry and I am putting together a thesis as to how people react to embarrassing moments." The cunning guy now yells loudly, "What do you mean by $500?

I LEARN WHAT IS LIFE ABOUT...

2009-05-30T00:00:00.002+08:00

Life isn't about keeping score. It's not about how many friends you have Or how accepted you are. Not about if you have plans this weekend or if you're alone. It isn't about who you have kissed, It isn't about who your family is or how much money they have Or what kind of car you drive.

Or where you are sent to school. It's not about how beautiful or ugly you are. Or what clothes you wear, what shoes you have on, Or what kind of music you listen to. It's not about if your hair is blonde, red, black, or brown, Or if your skin is too light or too dark. Not about what grades you get how smart you are, how smart everybody else thinks you are, or how smart standardized tests say you are.

Life just isn't.

Life is about who you love and who you hurt. It's about who you make happy or unhappy purposely. It's about keeping or betraying trust. It's about friendship, used as a sanctity or as a weapon. It's about what you say and mean, maybe hurtful, maybe heartening. It's about starting rumors and contributing to petty gossip. It's about what judgments you pass and why. And who your judgments are spread to. It's about who you've ignored with full control and intention. It's about jealousy, fear, ignorance, and revenge. It's about carrying inner hate and love, letting it grow and spreading it.

But most of all, it's about using your life to touch or poison other people's hearts in such a way that could have never occurred alone. Only you choose the way those hearts are affected, and those choices are what life's all about.

2009-05-28T23:55:00.002+08:00

todae i went to seacrh fer job. as i jus cnt stay at home! its very frustrating.
ferz i went to tamp century square to send my cuzzies fone fer repair. den i went to tamp 1 to look fer a job. finally i went to FILA. they say they will call me most probably this week. i hope he will call.. hmm..
den sunny sms me sayin he cant make it coz hys granny ask to accomany her to some places. so our planned cancelld..nvm i understand. (: den, i went to e beach..to ease my mind... n jyeah. hmm.. kinda bored la all alone by e beach..

till here!

♥нєунєунєу♥

2009-05-27T22:53:00.002+08:00

Sanchi'Arysan

good evening bloggers! im now at my bro place overnight here. jyeah kinda bored at home. so i guess sleep over hys homie. since my sis in law is not here. hmm.. tmr is mummy's bdae. 280548 is her berf date. shes turning 61 tmr.. jyeah ive got nothing to gave her koz i hvnt get my pay yet.. shud most probably 2more daes. hmm.. actualli tmr me n sunny suppose to meet and jyeah now hys batt low n cnt even give hym a call wen he ask me to kol hym jus now. hmm.. well i think our meetin cancelled..! gosh! still got fri. be patients efah.. hahaa!

♥ he asked me wat will he get if i meet hym. i said to hym, i give hym a kiss, a hug n all. den i ask hym bck wat i get in return, he said anything u want i will give. im not bad, askin hym fer things den beyond e limit i jus cnt cross e line. wat i want frm u is,ur love, ur trust, ur attention, ur responsibilities, protect me, be with me n be mine. jyeah dats impossible fer now, but possible later on if we are together. (: i ♥ hym so much. love hym more then anything else. jyeah he noe tat.. i dun need to say alot of tyms to hym koz he noes dat i love hym.! god had purify dis lil heart. he created hym to born in this world n send to mie. jyeah i cnt say much about hym as i dun noe hym inner and outer part of hym. i jus cnt judge hym like dat..

♥ message to beloved mum:

selamat ulang tahun yg ke 61 mak, semoge allah murah kan rezeki.

panjang kan umur. memberi berkat ke dlm kehidupan seharian.

memberi kebahagian bermakne dlm hidup.

insyaallah amin.....

pichas of mie.

2009-05-26T23:39:00.003+08:00

ARYinTHEHAT!

lovetakinpichas!!

2009-05-26T23:13:00.002+08:00

so bored at home.. du nothing. not even go out search fer jobs.. haiyaa!! im desperately need a job.
i jus cnt stay at home n du nothing. need to earn some income fer myself.. argh!! stress sak.. well. jus now im busy sending out resume to some companies. hopefull i get it . hmm.. i misses sunny.. n i miss skewl.! haha zamanzaman kental.. miss thos daes.. alot of memories with 'beloved friends' haha.. ckip skewl, skip class in e middle of e lessons, goin out of e class without permission, teacher asked us to go into e class but infact we turn her awy by ingnorin her n went to e canteen, haha,. naughty tymes, such a great memories. but jyeah ITE life cnt escape frm backstabber, haters, minahs n e mats, posers, spoilers, and all e idiotics in dat ITEbishan. heehee (: n jyeah ders something i cnt ferget till now. a fuckin gerl who used to say imma scary cats who dare not face all those motherfucker.. haha.. shes kinda weird if u dint find fault with anyone y must u become such a big ass to make big huuhaa. so i jus like kept silence koz i did nothing wrong. haha.. stupid frens of mine believe very shits she said.
and yeah.. haha.. nvm laa jus ferget about it. hmm.. well im planning to celebrate my bdae at ecp. but hmm.. not sure whether chalet or bbq pit. if chalet nid to book earlier same goes to bbq pit. buti think i will do bbq pit as yeah need not alot of money. den cn spend on other things tot of askin my bro to cook fer me food, jus simple dish will do. and ermm. e rest i will settle it myself. but fer e decorations hmm.. kinda not vry sure..well who to invitee?? haha.. wanna join yeah most welcome. need alots of preparations.

hmm.. put dat asyd laa..

EZORAARYSAN

2009-05-26T00:28:00.003+08:00

2009-05-25T22:53:00.002+08:00

wello newbies!! heeh..

todae i went to e PS fer an interview.. at blablabla.! hehe (:

den i went to dis dorothy perkins. and it was lyke.. ouh my gosh! e design are all so very e simple. and hmm e sizi are all big. jyeah i dint sae im small duh ! must be thinkin dat wae huh? *smack!* but e tank top quite nice. e pattern n e colours. but e rest was lyke very out. oni certain items laarh..afta i went fer my interview den to dorothy perkins boutique. i went out from dat shopping mall. and den a girl approach me and she said dis. "hi mam i jus need 2mins to explain to u wat i gona sae. well i wana ask, do u think an ex convict deserve a 2nd chance.?" i replied, " well jyeah i think they do deserve a 2nd chance.." she sae again " well maam im an ex convict, if u think so i wud highly appreciate if u cud buy dis pen fer 5 bucks and help e ex convict to persue thier studies includin me as my own parents dint support me."

then i was thinkin. wat e fuck!! 5bucks fer a pen which cost at abt 50cents at mamak shop??? guess wat i said to her.

"well i will buy this stupid(sae in e heart) pen if u cud ans me some questions and show me something dat i need to see. possible?

she said yeah sure.." now show me ur pass or id 2gather with e license." she ans me with a timid tone and give me a bloddy face! " erm maam we are not given with any supportive documents or id to verify our particulars." well i replied easy as ABC "ouh reali? whats n which associates is tat? as fer me, i do hav experienced in going around askin fer donation fer disabled children and i was given a id pass, with my name, i/c, and e name of e associate. n a suporrtive documents which stated i was give a task n permission to ask fer donation, in legal wae. with e tel number stated in e paper itself. so i wud appreciate if u cud give me e num of dat association and i will give dem a call and i buy staright from e person who incharge of u."

den e girl with a scared silly face and walked awy quickly. im very satisfied to give her a short talk and lecture.!

she thinks im stupid and easy fer her to fool me with my money. silly!!

then here come my worriedness.! sunny dint replied my msg since 3plus till 5.15pm. i was damn worried koz e last msg he sent to me was im weak to do anythin. gosh.. i keep msgin hym. keep callin hym.. i jus let e train pass ny me.. i told hym im not goin bck until he reply or ans my kol. i tried to call hym and he rejected my call. i tot something happen he then misses call me. den i call hym bck he rejected again.. i keep on msgin n kolling. finally........

he ans.. u noe wat he sae. u my hp rosak n i cnt sent e msg to u. i dun noe wats wrong with my fone.. n i give u a missed to tell u dat i cnt deliver e msg to u..

wth.. haha.. kelakar laa. he think i wud understnd hys language by miss kol me n e meanin is dat "i cnt send u msg koz my hp spoilt" haha... he give me a heart attack.. haha..

well den i went to mit my sis at tanjong pagar den we went home together..

hehe...

jyeah tats all fer todae.. hehe(:

2009-05-24T22:23:00.002+08:00

I'LL LUV U THRU OUT THE ETERNITY

i dunch noe how long it takes to heal dis broken heart.
it took me months aft my ex, and yet it still a fresh wound dat jus cudent be healed.
till comes a guy who shine on me wher i cud slowly find a switch to on e light at my darkest side and unlock e heart dat had been locked fer months long.
i cudent believe at short period of tym, everythin cud change e atmosphere so quickly.
i tot ive found e answer to my question but i dint, ive failed! it really pulled me down. and it reali upset me.
ive found u and noe i need u in every part of me. u make me ferget abt my past so fast, u make me build up my self confidence in life in a short period of tym. uve managed to make me fall in love again. but y it seems to come to an end. and y it began to driftin apart frm me? am i gona lose everything dat i owe?
please tell me NO! please tell me its all MISUNDERSTANDIN! jus wen, jus wen im gona lead a hapi life with u? im not forcing it to happen at a glance. but i dun wish to let u slipped of my hands and let u flow down to someone elses hand.. i cant imagine my life without you. i dun wish e rain to wet our chapter of love n tear it away jus like how it tear my heart into thounsands of pieces. i dint expect things to happen so fast. i missed us. i missed our daes, it was such a memorable one fer me. uve bring bck e laughter dat ive been waitin fer, u bring bck e joy dat i dint expected to be, uve healed e heart dat broken into thousands of pieces which i tot cudent be heal, u bring bck e light dat cud shine on my darkest life, u give me love, dat ive thirst fer and ure e guy tat i dream of to be with. but its e matter of tym n if only fate syd us n give us a chance to be 2gather. i neva hav tot abt e worst thing dat cud happen in my life.
ive neva tot dat i wud get hurt, ive neva tot i wud being dump and ive neva tot dat i wud be rejected becos i noe ure not sucha guy. i believe in true love. even its not gona happen, atleast ive given a chance to love u. wateva it takes, wateva happen i will neva stop lovin u. i will neva stop waitin. koz i want u to noe how much i love u n how deep is my love dat i had fer u.

2009-05-24T13:19:00.002+08:00

hello .

good afternoon loves!

sunny is sick, im very sure, his resting now. kinda worried abt hym. he often sick. maybe

less sleepin tym. hmm.. yesterdae we talked on e phone, n we crack stupid jokes. haha.

baby inm in love!! wuhuuu!!

jyeah its conferm next week we mit. we goin fer our meal der.. haha..

wellwellwell ive got nothing to sae. actualli. jus change blogskins.

till here..

tata!!

2009-05-23T23:42:00.003+08:00

i dun think eu will ever fuly understand how eu hav touched my lyf and made me who i am. i dun think eu cud ever know jus how truly u are special eu aretat even on e darkest nights. eu are my brightes star.i dun think u will ever comprehend how u ehav made my dream come true or how eu hav opened my heart to love n e wonders it cn do.eu hav allowed me to experience somthin very hard to find,

whch is unconditional love tat exists in my body soul and mind. i dun think eu cud ever feel all e love i hav give and in sure u will neva realised eu hav been my will to live. eu are an amazing person and without u i dun know wher i wud be. having u in lyf, completes and fullfills every part of me..

iloveyousunny.

2009-05-23T23:00:00.002+08:00

it has been 2 daes passed since i last bloggin. well kinda tired plus bz total up lazy.
jyeah.. nothing much to share actualli . well kinda a boring dae.
jus got fed up n fucked up with e internet connection. damn slow. it has been month but we dint mit up. n i jus tot if makin it next week. n he agreed..
yesterdae ma heart wanted to view sunny's tagged profile. e fers thin i did was toread hys comments. n i came a cross arfah's(sunny's ex) comments jyeah kinda cute n lovin.
at dat point of tym. i cud feel e love dat she had towrds sunny. i cn feel e burning love . i manage to view it. jyeah .. no heart feeling. seriously.
koz i noe. dat was his past with arfah. shall not bring it up e matter again.

hmm i kinda missed hym . missed hym so much. my finger jus cudent stop typin. hehe.
hmmph... he is sick now. damn worried. but he is getting beta. no wdier tgh kemas gerobok.. haha.
rajin sey .. goodgood. caloncalon bakal suami misali..
haha jokinjokin. hehe (: well.. i did nothing much todae. i went to e mosque. as uasual evry sat.
went to e NTUC buy fer dat naughty niece milk. *kuat susu* den went to my adeq's tiution. to ask fer her improvment.. well her tutor told me dat shes gettin beta n wantin to ask question weneva she dun understand which is a good progress n good start fer her to build her confident.

hmm.. im plannin to repaint ma room. but thinkin wen is e best fer me to do dat.

haix.
i dunoe wat to sae.

hmm gona write n type a poet.

we chatted tis earlier on

2009-05-21T16:43:00.002+08:00

★♦♣♥♠sUnnYBoI★♦♣♥♠ says:
b are we getting away ?
♥єzоrаАRYѕай♥ says:
wat are u tryin to sae?
u ckp ape ni b?
ur love twrds me da fade ke?
da tk mcm dulu ke b? ?
plz don
kox i love u so much
i dun wish to be apart frm u
★♦♣♥♠sUnnYBoI★♦♣♥♠ says:
yaa we mcm da tk mcm d l
d n realise
♥єzоrаАRYѕай♥ says:
i did realised
★♦♣♥♠sUnnYBoI★♦♣♥♠ says:
den
♥єzоrаАRYѕай♥ says:
lau u nk tau i did cry
pk kan pasl kiter
★♦♣♥♠sUnnYBoI★♦♣♥♠ says:
ek tk ma nagis laa kae
♥єzоrаАRYѕай♥ says:
makin hari u makin jauh dari i
★♦♣♥♠sUnnYBoI★♦♣♥♠ says:
idk
laa
♥єzоrаАRYѕай♥ says:
u sebok dgn bende u
★♦♣♥♠sUnnYBoI★♦♣♥♠ says:
i bkn ape
♥єzоrаАRYѕай♥ says:
i nk tanyer u
★♦♣♥♠sUnnYBoI★♦♣♥♠ says:
nnt da stead mcm tkder life tkot mcm t h jek
♥єzоrаАRYѕай♥ says:
do u still love me like b4?
★♦♣♥♠sUnnYBoI★♦♣♥♠ says:
nnt da tkleh enjoy
♥єzоrаАRYѕай♥ says:
b
do u?
★♦♣♥♠sUnnYBoI★♦♣♥♠ says:
yea2
♥єzоrаАRYѕай♥ says:

★♦♣♥♠sUnnYBoI★♦♣♥♠ says:
d n worry
♥єzоrаАRYѕай♥ says:
i jus feel dat im far frm u
★♦♣♥♠sUnnYBoI★♦♣♥♠ says:
we will solve t s a
k akn jadi mcm d l
♥єzоrаАRYѕай♥ says:
im scared of losin u
★♦♣♥♠sUnnYBoI★♦♣♥♠ says:
j z d n control me
♥єzоrаАRYѕай♥ says:
jus wen did u control u?
*i
i tk perna control u
u oweas hav e green light since kiter knl
n i jus dun wana be neglected
i tknk ape yg kiter build selame ni gone down e drain. e love, e laughter, e joy e sharing
im lettin out wat i feel now tau b
i hav to
i dun wish to keep
it hurts
u start to be far frm me wen u dpt keje, u bz kuar, and stuff. which i tk kesah koz i tau u noe e limit.
as tyms passed
i feel lonely
i feel u da mcm tk der tym fer me at all.
dats wher e feelin of being neglected comes. n i owaes said to myslef., fah, sunny sebok, n he will nvr ferget u n nvr stop lovin u
tu je yg i ingt tiap hari lau i rase laen
koz i tknk kiter gadoh
i nk hubungn kiter strong. im holdin on to it. till e tym comes n say it all.
koz i love u
★♦♣♥♠sUnnYBoI★♦♣♥♠ says:
ac ali we far bcoz of my pp8 jek laa
so d n worry
♥єzоrаАRYѕай♥ says:
yar i thnk so
think
★♦♣♥♠sUnnYBoI★♦♣♥♠ says:
is that
no other reason
kala da top p mist i da msg kan
♥єzоrаАRYѕай♥ says:
yar
i mean im jus tellin u je b wat i feel.
n yea u jrang online so rase laen
tu je

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see.. im scared of losing hym.. hey bloggers n passer by ignore wat i type earlier.

tu tym tgh marah.. mesti la ckp mepek. haha..

haix..

bluek..

tknk ckp lagy la... nk urut kepale ni.

tadi terhantok kat tembok . while talkin to my cusion den wen i turn...

gedebuk!!! benjol..~! haha siak

2009-05-21T14:41:00.002+08:00

please make it stop . please.

it starts again! i jus dun understand y i cnt do dis n dat. do dis n dat must be secretive.): jus becoz u dun wan anybody to know abt it. cant even call u b n stuff. y is dat so? jus becoz we are not 2gather yet. yes maybe by tellin me abt ur feeling last tym twrds her is normal. but did u think how i feel? arrrgh!!!! wen im fyne with it since u tell me dat ntg goes btwn u n her. oke im ok.. still in cntct, oke i dun mind at all.

i dun understand jus bcox of a bloody comment which i sae u luk like belo. u dun like it.. n yeah of e werd 'b' wats wrong with dat? girls sendin i miss u , and stuff u cud accept but im e one who read n im e one who feel. yes i admit im jealous. happy!

ya to u its bullshit!. to gerls like me. dey will think e same.

yes i do trust u dats y i ask b4 i shoot. but y? y sunny u owaes get me wrong???? y??? is god testin me?? i hate to cry koz it hurts me reali deep.. i cud feel e cut in it.. e wound dat hurts. ):

i hate dis feelin.. seriously.. to shed tears. argh it suck big time.! im sori if im over react here bloggers or who ever read tis.. im jus lettin out wats in me. so tat i cud be ease. no one to turn to.. i dun wana argue with hym anymore. i dun wana create a scene which leads me to no wher.. im sorry fer wat ive saed if its hurt u. or make u mad..my werds will fereva hurt u.

im sorry.. say no more.. follow with e flow. continue loving hym. it nvr fade even an inch. koz loving hym to much make me dis wae.. god, gimme strenght to get rid of dis stupid fuckin jealousy feelin. n sealed my mouth frm all e hurtin werds. so dat i wont make hym mad.! please. i wana argue no more.

)':

i jus want u to noe how hurt m i,

how deep e wound is.

i will still love u..

yes i will. )':

2009-05-20T00:26:00.002+08:00

AT LAST SUNNY CALL ME AT 00:24!!! ARGH!!! DAPAT LEPAS KN RINDU AKU KAT DIER!! HEHEE!! LOVE U BABY!!

2009-05-20T00:07:00.002+08:00

hello babies!

it has been a dae i n sunny tk cntct due to hys prepaid low. i damn missed hym. as daes goes by my love towrds hym grow.ive tried to control those feeling but i cant . i owaes tot hes bsyd me n accompany me sleepin. he take care of me . i jus hope all dat will happen. i think im crazy, i think im insane, i think im over react , but i dun think i love hym. but its true tat i love hym. love hym so much ,

dis finger of mine, jus cnt stop typpin love.. haix.. wat wrong with me? am i puttin high hopes? but i dun think im puttin high hopes..

argh nvm .. im lack of sleep . i wana and hav my sleep now. takkaire.

i missed n loved u sunny.

2009-05-19T09:19:00.002+08:00

GooD morning loves!

wello . hmm . early in e morning hav to go to the market. buy some kitchen stuff . leta will be goin out with fren . goin fer lepaking! at marina barage . and now nid to finish up house werk, need to create bayplan , n iron e clothes . grrr . lots of things nid to b done by tis short period of tym. will b goin out at 3 plus . hmm . i duno wat ot wear . shud i wear dress? hmm i duno . still havent decide yet on my attire. leta laarh .(:

now im creating bayplans, and bloggin at e same tym. still hav e tym to blog wen thing need to be done as soon as possible. tats me , like to do multi task but cnt evn done it on tym . haa. i still need my bed actualy. haha. well meeting mama leta to take money . tmr will be meetin papa to take maony also. haha.. loaded sia . fake!

kae laa. till here.

see ya. (:

IM sORRy

2009-05-19T00:11:00.004+08:00

~~im hapie to have YOU!~~

sayang, ive wrote something fer u

which i create it myself.

you are mine foreva!

FORGET FORGIVE and let e past move on.

theres nothing in tis lyf rite now hold me bck .im all 4 u.

just do with me as your soft heart Desires.

i beg u ma love, to

just simply let go. a start of fresh new lyf..

just u n me, we know e past. we lived it no MORE.!

I must CONFESS,

we ARE tis wae because we havent foun't it as of yet.

and YES i sae.

just be, just simply be e wae u are without a secret in a dae.

FORGET, FORGIVE the past and lets start over.

we're lucky, you n i its over.e book of lyf

from past til now.

So please sae 'yes' and let me take a bow,

i give u all ma love, my lyf, my body and my heart.

i wish for us to neva be apart.

MY HEART is burnin with desire, its burning

with an answer 'how'?

HOW could IT BE THAT MISERY OF LIFE COULD BRING SUCH SUN LIGHT TO MY NEVER SEEING EYE?

just be my love, relay and smile.

im yours, i lived in you.

YOU ARE MINE

2009-05-18T21:22:00.001+08:00

GOSH!
had a stupid missunderstanding jus now . haix . i tot of fecthing sunny bck frm werk tmr. we did msg earlier n talk abt it . he tot i was sarcastic wen askin hym fer e name of hys werk place.
all dis while we sms, chattin or even talkin we did say 'kao, aku .'
jus wats wrong with hym. hes jus so diff . he said tat wat i say on e msg jus now make hym feel frustrated . but i dun noe wat i did if he tot im being sarcastic y from e ferx we noe ech oth he nvr said tat jus becoz of tat 'kao aku thing ?
den i get to noe, he's stress with hys werk and stuff . it sadness me tat while he is stress he throw all hys anger on me, a girl tats not in awrong . and he told me tat he got alot of new frens der . its good fer hym. but im jus feel so scared tat he might neglect me, n had no tym to spent tym with me. onli if u cud hear me sayin im still waitin fer e tym we get all those happiness dat we dream of before this. idk y i must cry over a stupid thing lyk now. ):
idk wat to do now . am i e one who to be blame ? am i at fault? n tmr he cudnt make it coz he nid to do overtym . i try to understand hym . but i jus dun wana be apart with hym . it hurts me so deeply. idk y i feel so hurt. he dint replied or nudge me wen hys online at msn now. fer like 1 half dae i dint get to chitchat.
jus love hym to much! izit wrong fer me to love hym? y in e middle of wat i hav n wat i get, i owaes get hurt? y must it happen to me? wat hav i done wrong till i feel dis hurt? how am i goin to get dis feelin awy frm me? it hurts . damn hurt .GOD.! please make dis hurt feelin go awy far awy frm me. im tired of shedin my tears .
i reali want hym to noe dat i love hym. n owaes will. ):
i dun wana feel neglected by hym. now i cn feel e loneliness within me.. e emptiness is approachin me. i felt as though im gona lose evrythin dat i owe now. im not strong enuf to be strong in facin dis alone. im tired of all e shits happen to me previously . i nid strength. ):

gosh . i feel so sad ... ):

SNAPSHOT OF HYM.

2009-05-18T00:30:00.003+08:00

~~superdupercutelilboyofmine!~~
you are my everything!

still the one i kiss goodnite!

you the one tat i love!

i love you bie!...

2009-05-17T23:55:00.002+08:00

~~BORING!~~

gosh todae seems to be damn bored.!

i really missed u sunny . i jus cnt control this feeling .

im wondering wat he is duin now. i hope u oraedi had ur meal syg . wellwellwell todae did nothing much . went to my cousins place. kenduri cukur rambot . go makanmakan . den i went to vivit my god mother . she fall sick . so i went der .i dint stayed der fer long . as .... yeah ... dat jerk is ther .

at around 6plus i went bck home koz i felt tired. maybe lack of sleep. haix ... bad hair dae todae .

ANNNNNNND!!! todae i spent 80bucks buy stuff fer myself .

i bought, 2 pair of shoes, 2 leggings, 1 3quater pants, 2 dress n 1 t-dress .

so i cnt spent much afta dis. most probably nxt month . haha .

heyheyhey...

he called me jus now in e aftnoon. i was so damn happy n excited! we talk like fer about 10mins? haha pathetic.

nvm . at least i get to hear hys vioce den nvr . he sae i liss u so much b, i love u b. gosh . he melts me . weeeee.!

actuali we supposed to plan abt our meetin dis week but i herad ntg frm hym . bz maybe?

im not very sure abt tat . wellwell i duno wen he start werk . den by tat got less tym to talk or spent tym .nvrmd la. jus wait fer hym fer a lil while .how i wish i cud cuddle hym jus like how i cuddle my pillow evrynite. now my fone went silent . not even a msg frm hym . maybe hys sleepn. but nvm la. haix . i cnt denied tat my love towrds hym grow deeper . i dont dare to say his gona be mine fereva n he cant be replace.as fer me , i used to said dat to my previous but it ends up to be something which most couples trying to aviod . which is BREAK UP. n dos werds are nothing. n e tym dat we build e bonding btw ech oth n e love dat we share are all wasted n gone down e drain .its easy to put evrytin in werds n simple sentence . but its hard task fer evry single one of us to aplly it to our ownself . i admit im weak in relationship , i dun trust in lyin during relationship . now im tryin ma very best to treasure sunny n takkkaire of hym love hym more den eva n cherish hym , but no high hope upon dis unknown status . jus let e tym decides . dun wish to crack my brain thinkin abt wat gona happen during our fers mit . wellwell jus hav to expect e unexpected . u reali hope dat sunny wud accept e wae i am . its not easy to find someone. to love n accept e wae we are . i hope wen he sae i love u he mean it n gona keep on sayin i love u b ,trying to maintain e relationship like e fers tym known it not a easy thing to do . alot of obstacles to face . it test our patients .

sayang,

i jus wana sae dat i love u .

u were ther when im in need, u were ther to fullfil e emptiness in my heart . u manage u steal my heart .

im so in love with u . u are my sun tat shine on me n give e light to my walkin path in my dream n reality,

u made me stood up on my own feet to move on wit liv like others. iknow ive been quite demanding n abit of jealousy in myself. but u still handle it calmly, im proud to hav u as part of my life . i felt secure wen i hav u . i wish we cud go far , n noone cud break us apart until it stated we are not meant fer each other.

i reali love u sunny, so reali love u.

foerver love you.

~~ezoraarysan~~

2009-05-16T18:23:00.000+08:00

feel so bored at home . n do nothing much jus now. went to the mosque at eunos (not sure e name of it (:) waited fer uztad fer lyk 1/2hour? i gueesssss. but it end up he dint get to turn up same goes to uztad tat wanted to replace uztad jalalludin.(might be wrong in speeling. wdv!)
then followed my aunt n uncle to the market and had our dinner there i ate 'mee bandong' whichis emmmm.. Delicious! then went to e market tu buy some stuff. hahah.. i dint noe tat hawt guys wanted to werk ther.. hahahaaaaa!!!! step macho la kater kan! hehe..
wen bck home by taxi.. loaded you! (: then now had nothing to do sitting down and here it goes doin blogging.. well i had a hard tym tryin to change e DAMN cursor! shit! cnt even get it ryte. damn it. haha..

ouh yar, SUNNY! we cnt evn sms or talk coz hys ppd low. but nvrmine . well i guess now he oready reached ecp. havin fun wit hys fwens. *have fun aites sayang*..
jyeah kinda bored. idk abut my feeling now. kinda wierd. i think i love hym . yar i love hym .!
hys different frm others . he treat me well. but he's kinda hmm... how cn i put it in werds? errrr...
silly ? hahah... ooops . ish dun tell hym . hahaa. idiots!
hmm.. fyi ders eva one gerl tag me at tagged msg n saed to me 'STAY AWY FROM SUNNY SNATCHER!"
WTF! . but it doesnt affect me at all. well i know dat its bitches duin koz get jealous over me n sunny . well get a life bitch.! who ever u are !. haha... well sometimes people jus envy abt
couples dat gettin on well with othr party . comon la its how u cherish n treasure e one u love. maybe it easy to say it out but a difficult task to do. well up to e individual . as fer me and sunny, we both are from 2 different type of lving. so its a challenge fer us to accept our both world.
and get use to it. but yar ders some incommon abt us. dun wish to say it here. haha LAME!. jus waitin fer e ryte tym! you know wat i mean.

anywae till here fer now..
nid to shower dat naughty lil niece of mine. haha.

byebye . 6:38pm

2009-05-16T15:52:00.000+08:00

hys beautifool aunty n akid! :P

THE MOST HYPER NEPHEW!

name: mohammad akid ariq aka 25 cents

age: 9 months

occupation: shouting, crying, wonder around e whole house (like supervisor), clean e house by gliding, hehe (: laughing over sillywillydumbdumb thnigy !GANGSTER PARADISE well known in chaichee(:

stayed: singapore, chaichee st

best qoute: not at e moment.

SuperDuperCutieDumbDumbLOVES!!!

2009-05-16T15:38:00.000+08:00

MOST NAUGHTY NIECE!

HER NAME: PUTERI INSYIRAH
AGE: 1 YEAR 9 MONTHS
OCCUPATION: SHOUTING, CRYING, DEMANDS FER HER NEEDS..( LIKE JEPON!)
STAYED: SINGAPORE & MALAYSIA (:
BEST QOUTE: TUMBOK !! BILER BLEK (BILER BALEK), AHDO (HELLO) (:

2009-05-15T01:42:00.000+08:00

jus pics of me.. haha.. at pasir ris chalet .

2009-05-15T00:42:00.000+08:00

CHARACTER..

i learn something todae .

its about character .

whats about tat .

weeeeelllll .

watch your thoughts, dey become words

watch your words, dey become an actions

watch your actions, det become habits

watch your habits, dey become CHARACTER.

watch your character, dey become your destiny .

well, whats about building trusting relationship .?

Life doest not have meaning through mere existence,or acquisition or fun. The meaning of life is
inherent in the connections we make to others
through honor and obligation.”

well tats all fer now.

cause , im blaaaaaank! (:

my LOVE.

2009-05-14T13:17:00.000+08:00

THAT'S HYM. SUNNY
the one in spec.

my one and onlie hunnybunnysillywillydumbdumb.

STUPID JERKS IN MA WAE !

2009-05-14T01:34:00.000+08:00

IDIOTICS !

I chatted on msn jush now. it seems to be so fyne n smooth . i was appeared to be offline.
i tag a STUPID FUCKIN BOY who named el. haaha . jus a funny name with no meanin in it. dumbdumb ,
well. his some kind of 'kaypo' boy . ask a dumb quest . ''why u appear offline wen infact u online .?"
wat kind of quest is dat .? gosh ..

not much to say i jus replied "ape saje". and guess wat he ASK ME TO EXPLAIN by sayin "ape saje" to hym . funny la dis guy . i told hym its ntg important n not necessary fer me to jolly well explaining dat fuckin werd . he den burst n BOOOOOOOOOOOOMM!!! wtf ! waiit .. i will copy n paste our conversation over msn .
vry lame.. and childish act of hym but not me . jhaahahaa!!!

here you go .
wher it starts n how it ends. haha..
and don get it wrong. read it carefully koz u may get mixed up by which is mine n which is hys.
e matrep typing is of course hym. n e other part is mine , read carefully.

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13/5/2009
11:12:04 PM
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eL
perkare merepek nk besar2kan
13/5/2009
11:12:10 PM
eL
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abey ???
13/5/2009
11:12:22 PM
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eL
ape sak abey???
13/5/2009
11:12:24 PM
eL
♥єzоrаАRYѕай♥
sape suro kaw sarcastic nqn aku !!!!
13/5/2009
11:12:36 PM
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eL
sape sacarstic??
13/5/2009
11:12:36 PM
eL
♥єzоrаАRYѕай♥
tak puas meh sini ....
13/5/2009
11:12:40 PM
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eL
kao ley tau ke aku gitu??
13/5/2009
11:12:42 PM
eL
♥єzоrаАRYѕай♥
aku tak heran ....
13/5/2009
11:12:56 PM
eL
♥єzоrаАRYѕай♥
EH PUKI ! ! !
13/5/2009
11:13:01 PM
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eL
ehk aku bkn gengster atau big fuck mcm kao ar nk tunjok belang kat pmpn
13/5/2009
11:13:02 PM
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eL
karot
13/5/2009
11:13:03 PM
eL
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KAW G MATI LA !!!
13/5/2009
11:13:06 PM
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eL
ape sak puki???
13/5/2009
11:13:12 PM
♥єzоrаАRYѕай♥
eL
kau g ar mati
13/5/2009
11:13:21 PM
♥єzоrаАRYѕай♥
eL
suke hati aku ar nk mati ke nk hidop
13/5/2009
11:13:22 PM
eL
♥єzоrаАRYѕай♥
bye !
13/5/2009
11:13:27 PM
♥єzоrаАRYѕай♥
eL
asl ngn puki aku???
13/5/2009
11:13:33 PM
♥єzоrаАRYѕай♥
eL
ader masalah pe ngn kau??
13/5/2009
11:13:43 PM
♥єzоrаАRYѕай♥
eL
siak pey jantan
13/5/2009
11:14:04 PM
♥єzоrаАRYѕай♥
eL
bdk TAIK je carik pasal dgn perkare kecik
13/5/2009
11:14:12 PM
eL
♥єzоrаАRYѕай♥
ape die ????
13/5/2009
11:14:14 PM
eL
♥єzоrаАRYѕай♥
ok .
13/5/2009
11:14:16 PM
♥єzоrаАRYѕай♥
eL
kate campor ngn org umur tue
13/5/2009
11:14:26 PM
♥єzоrаАRYѕай♥
eL
abh perangai kontol
13/5/2009
11:14:33 PM
eL
♥єzоrаАRYѕай♥
mmg aku da tak kasi ppn muke !!!
13/5/2009
11:14:36 PM
♥єzоrаАRYѕай♥
eL
cermin diri kao tu dulu sebelom kau nk anu org laen
13/5/2009
11:14:45 PM
eL
♥єzоrаАRYѕай♥
abey asl !!
13/5/2009
11:14:48 PM
♥єzоrаАRYѕай♥
eL
kau ni jantan tk der care nyer org
13/5/2009
11:14:55 PM
eL
♥єzоrаАRYѕай♥
eh , lu tak payah bnyk bunyi .
13/5/2009
11:14:58 PM
eL
♥єzоrаАRYѕай♥
ajak lu pey guy !
13/5/2009
11:14:59 PM
♥єzоrаАRYѕай♥
eL
jgn nk mcm phm ar kat sini
13/5/2009
11:15:03 PM
eL
♥єzоrаАRYѕай♥
mari kaite maen .
13/5/2009
11:15:05 PM
eL
♥єzоrаАRYѕай♥
kite*
13/5/2009
11:15:18 PM
♥єzоrаАRYѕай♥
eL
kau pk jantan aku mcm kau pe'/
13/5/2009
11:15:20 PM
eL
♥єzоrаАRYѕай♥
kite tgk sape yg MP kat sini
13/5/2009
11:15:21 PM
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eL
kelepey
13/5/2009
11:15:32 PM
eL
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bye uhq !
13/5/2009
11:15:35 PM
♥єzоrаАRYѕай♥
eL
puki kao bende kecik nk ajak org laen
13/5/2009
11:15:43 PM
♥єzоrаАRYѕай♥
eL
dasar jantan sundal
13/5/2009
11:15:49 PM
eL
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ape dier ?
13/5/2009
11:15:52 PM
eL
♥єzоrаАRYѕай♥
ckp lag ??
13/5/2009
11:16:04 PM
eL
♥єzоrаАRYѕай♥
ckp lag uhq .
13/5/2009
11:16:11 PM
♥єzоrаАRYѕай♥
eL
bdk blom matang cuci otak kao dulu ar...
13/5/2009
11:16:20 PM
eL
♥єzоrаАRYѕай♥
ckp lag ..
13/5/2009
11:16:39 PM
♥єzоrаАRYѕай♥
eL
haha kao igt aku anjing mcm kao pe nk ckp lagy
13/5/2009
11:16:42 PM
♥єzоrаАRYѕай♥
eL
bdh
13/5/2009
11:26:02 PM
eL
♥єzоrаАRYѕай♥
takde . skrq ko nak bsr kan meh sini kiter jumpe !

not only dat . he did kol me . and say he wana punch me ..
as if he cud fyne me n dare . trash like hym wud onli do dat . (:
which part 'my blood go upstair" wher e scold me vulgarities . pukimak kao.
dat fuckin guy deserved to be stabbed in e heart n left with blood body with its soul.